What is wrong with me? Do I have Ocd?

[Anonymous]

I always do the same things repetitive order? Like at work when I clicked my number id on biometric I tend to check it 5 times before I leave and at home I always check my things before I leave 2 times and like I was restless not unless my mind just confirmed something is alright like I keep checking things. And then the things on my desk they all should straight in order and always not clutter and they should be equally in order or just organize like all face cream should be facing to one direction and straight in line like martin burney did in Sleeping with the enemy movie. Sometimes I feel like maybe Im stupid that I keep checking things even though I've seen my biometric is that already registered on that time.

[Oliverlogan263]

It sounds like you may be experiencing some obsessive compulsive tendencies. A few things that stand out:

- Repeatedly checking things like your biometrics or making sure items are organized in a certain way. Doing tasks more than once to reassure or ease anxiety.

- A need for symmetry, orderliness and things to be "just right." Feeling uncomfortable or bothered if they aren't perfect.

- Restlessness or inability to relax until certain routines are completed.

These types of repetitive behaviors and unwanted thoughts are common with OCD. A few things that may help:

- Talk to your doctor. They can properly evaluate your symptoms and determine if it could be OCD or another issue.

- Look into cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT). It's an effective treatment for helping manage compulsive thought patterns.

- Consider keeping a journal to track your routines and notice any triggers. This can help identify patterns.

- Challenge compulsions by resisting the urge to check or rearrange things. It's tough but gets easier with practice.

- Be patient with yourself. OCD causes real distress but it doesn't define you. Plenty of people successfully manage their symptoms.

Don't feel stupid - OCD lies and tells us we need to perform rituals to feel okay. But you have the power to overcome it. Seeking help is very brave. I hope this gives you a starting point, you've got this!

[Asker]

Hi Oli I work at hospital Im afraid my co workers will judge me if they find out I have an ocd.. I will talk to doctor to find out my ocd... whats wrong with me if I have time.

[Oliverlogan263]

Hey sis, I totally get why you'd be worried about coworkers judging you if you have OCD - hospitals can be high stress environments. But I really don't think you have anything to be ashamed of!

OCD is a medical condition, just like any other illness. It doesn't define you or make you "weak" in any way. You're still the same badass healthcare worker who shows up and saves lives every day.

A lot of folks don't understand mental health stuff though. You might consider talking to your doctor first before telling coworkers. See if they have any tips for management without medication so you feel in control.

Maybe start by confiding in just one trusted coworker you're super close with. Get their perspective on whether others would see it as a big deal. Odds are they'll be super supportive!

But you definitely don't owe anybody an explanation. As long as any compulsions aren't interfering with your work, try not to stress what others think too much. Focus on you.

Talk to your doc - I bet just getting a diagnosis will help you feel better. You've got this sis! We're all works in progress. You're doing great 💯

[Asker]

I hope so sometimes I get weird stares from people nurse or doctors or workers behind me who will use biometrics lol
Maybe they think Im weird person

[Oliverlogan263]

Ugh girl I totally get it, those stares can be so anxiety-inducing! But try not to take them personally. Chances are people around you just aren't as self-aware of their own quirks ya know?

At the end of the day, you showing up and doing your job well is what really matters most. And once you start treatment, you'll feel way less compelled to do the checks and routines anyway. It'll get easier!

In the meantime, own it sis! If anyone directs a weird look your way, smile big and give a little wave. Throw in a "sure is a great day, huh?" to show you're comfortable in your skin.

Confidence is key - act like you don't have a care what anyone thinks and before you know it, you really won't anymore! You got this babe. Keep your chin up ♥️

Soon the whole hospital will be wondering how you always manage to look so fly while saving lives! Don't forget - you've got mad skills. Focus on those.

[strateguy632]

correct that is acting compulsive but if it doesn't interfere with your activity functions, then it isn't a disorder, like sheldon always knocked 3 times in series big bang obsession but harmless.

[Asker]

Why did he do that?