What is wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

I think I’ve accepted the fact that I’ll be single forever. I am so far gone at this point my mental state is shot and I don't know what’s wrong with me I can’t do anything right when it comes to girls. I’m just not attractive to them and I don’t understand them heck I don’t even think I belong here I just don’t think like other people I think weird and it’s not normal I don’t know how to fix it. I’m naive in all the wrong places angry in all the wrong places and sad everywhere.. so sad and anxious too my mind is always thinking up all these scenarios a million miles a minute so much info it hurts I just want to rest I want peace my head hurts.

[CupcakeTheDestroyer]

Sounds like you’re depressed because you based part of your self worth on external validation through the potential for a romantic relationship. I imagine you live a very masculine life where you feel you can’t be open and vulnerable without experiencing backlash in the form of mocking/teasing from your peers for being girly or gay or something. If you genuinely want to feel better, start seeing a therapist to work at the root of your problems.

[Asker]

Wow you read that pretty well I’d say I’ve alway been more in touch with my emotions but I generally don’t like to show it unless it’s love we’re talking about. I don't know if I’d say I’ve based my self worth on getting a relationship but to a degree we all base are worth on the ones we want to attract something I could never figure out is why I’m so fixated on love and getting a girl I think it ties to my views on love I’ve wanted a family since I was young that’s my dream when I’m constantly rejected and get dirt thrown in my face by girls who claimed to love me past or present it really makes you wonder what love is to these people and considering that’s the majority of my experiences with woman is just that my views have become seriously warped and like I said I’m an emotional dude my emotions hit me and they hit me hard from sadness to joy to lust and anger

[Asker]

Sometimes I wonder if I’m an empath

[CupcakeTheDestroyer]

It honestly sounds like you’re just a man because romantic love is one of the only “safe” topics where a man can be vulnerable with others. The same standard isn’t applied to sadness or even joy.

[Sunnysunny123]

A lot of people have the same feelings and toughts you just need to learn how to live with it, which ones to listen to and which ones to try the hardest to ignore. Is there maybe any chance you are gay?
Women are not easy to deal with and everyones personality is unique and sometimes it maybe take some time to find the person you like...

[Asker]

I’ve watched some trans porn and even femboy porn before thought it was an indicator that maybe I was gay or bi cause I am very much sexually attracted to woman

[Asker]

Even ended up experimenting with a trans woman and the experience wasn’t for me was more of a fetish than something I would want to participate in in real life let alone one in an intimate relationship

[Asker]

Watching videos is not the same as reality

[Asker]

As for the woman front I just don’t know anymore I’ve been trying all my life to win over that special lady and it seems hopeless couple that with everything else going south in my life It just feels like an overload I just want some peace from life in general

[Asker]

I’m not sure if living with it is something I wanna do anymore

[Sunnysunny123]

Life is just generally very shitty, it's as when someone you really like or love dies, you can't go with them you just have to continue but how you continue is your choice, i know what you are talking about i have been there and still am, it's been so cruel i sometimes have questioned reality, you just say fuck it and start focusing as hard as you can on the better stuff things happen now for which i would have lost my mind back in the day, now i laugh and sometimes i think i am going insane, going into mad manic mode but then you give yourself time, sleep on some toughts. It's not fair but instead of it slapping you, you slap it and continue with your day. I tried to end it once too but i was not so brave, felt like shit for a while and now i think it's better that i didn't cuz now i am in a different place, i am not going to tell you that shit gets better on it's own but your choices matter

[Asker]

Thank you for your kindness and your story I’m in a better place then I was yesterday and sleeping on these thoughts does does help and yeah I’ve been there even yesterday I was there considering ending it all just for a bit of peace I don't know if I’m just to weak and scared or if I really do have a heart I don’t wanna make my family sadder than they are with the struggles we have going on and I don’t wanna let myself down like that either

[morganherrel]

Friend, you're not ready for a relationship.

And if you have any doubts about your emotional skills in those domains, then you will probably be rejected by most women, even fat (i. e., unattractive) ones.

Focus on yourself and figure out what is troubling you so much.

You possibly have mental illness that warrants medical attention!

I hope you get the help you need. Best of luck.

[Anonymous]

Sounds like ADHD to me but in any case... What is you accepted the other humans are always going to different and that there's nothing wrong with you. You still need to deal with them daily. You still need to work out your own strengths and play to them. And you still need to work out how to feel comfortable, calm, happy.
It's just the matrix, dude. You can still win. Whether you find one of your life long matches or not.

[PeachyPie93]

Try to see a doctor and let them know how you feel.. they maybe able to help you..

[boggboss]

Have u thought of trying therapy as no singular bit of advice here will help I I don't think

[Tomisworthless]

Bro im 30 get it right

[gatixek710]

Do you have a job?

[Anonymous]

Im the same with you