What is wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

I am 27, i have 2 girls ages 12 and 10. I am a high school dropout but i do have my GED i have always been addicted to something whether it be drugs or alcohol, i am just recently learning what its like to wake up and be sober. I just thought that the streets were where it was , and everyone i kno and knew my whole life did drugs. My parents did them in front of us. Thats just how i was raised. We had no utilites on in our home. We all slept in one room, we had a water hose in our kitchen window, cords run across the yard from my paps , my parents put in new bathtub, toliet, and sink but they never got used properly... but hey thats the way it went , i was the fourth child , there was Hali, whom would pf just been 1yr older that passed away after 6 short hours here 😪, then Tessa whom is 5 years older, and then Taylor 6 years older. Im the baby. I was a daddys girl most of my life up until about 7 years ago, before some things happened that can't be undid and now i am so confused about the way things r really supposed to go , cause i mean my dad is a pos he dont he deserved to he called that but, its hard getting used to cause i was close to him you kno he was supposed to be my protector , little did i kno he was the one i needed protected from. Moving on. . Gage, my Baby Daddy. Together 13 years and i had to go cause he put his hands on me and busted my ear drum., so that was all. I mean i had to do what i had to to take care of me him, his mom, and her old man. And she embedded in my head that i had to sell myself in order to provide for us (our habits also) and so i did. Thats actually how i got involved with my man now (he was one of my johns, ain't goin to lie) but i fell in love with him over the 4 yearz we were meeting he is just so sweet and so good to me , if there truly is a god he must have heard my prayers, cause man I got real lucky, but he makes me feel sometimes like I'm not ever going to be good enough. Is it because my past?

[Sparkie460]

You had a hard life. I'm glad you got away from it all and your trying to make a better life for you and your kids. I congratulate you for getting sober. Keep up the good work. As for your man, I think he's trying to get you mad enough that you want to speed up progress that you're making. He's giving you a " Kickstart " so to speak. Work hard, stay sober and make your life better for you and your kids. Good luck to you and I wish you the best of luck. YOU GOT THIS.

[Anonymous]

I'll admit you were dealt a shit hand, but you're an adult now.
You have the freedom to do with your life as you choose. All your problems now can be blamed on nothing but your own choices.
Getting sober was a good choice and a good start. There's nothing wrong with you. It's time to pick yourself up and start making things better for you and your kids

[hbg84]

You've made some good choices in leaving the shitty situations you was in. Leaving an abusive boyfriend. Getting clean. I applaud you.

You can look at your boyfriend making you feel not good enough one of 2 ways. You can look at as he's doing it to be mean or he's doing it because he loves you and wants you to become a better person. You can let it eat you up or use it as fuel to boost you up to becoming an even better person than you are now.

[Anonymous]

Jerry... Jerry... Jerry!