I am 27, i have 2 girls ages 12 and 10. I am a high school dropout but i do have my GED i have always been addicted to something whether it be drugs or alcohol, i am just recently learning what its like to wake up and be sober. I just thought that the streets were where it was , and everyone i kno and knew my whole life did drugs. My parents did them in front of us. Thats just how i was raised. We had no utilites on in our home. We all slept in one room, we had a water hose in our kitchen window, cords run across the yard from my paps , my parents put in new bathtub, toliet, and sink but they never got used properly... but hey thats the way it went , i was the fourth child , there was Hali, whom would pf just been 1yr older that passed away after 6 short hours here 😪, then Tessa whom is 5 years older, and then Taylor 6 years older. Im the baby. I was a daddys girl most of my life up until about 7 years ago, before some things happened that can't be undid and now i am so confused about the way things r really supposed to go , cause i mean my dad is a pos he dont he deserved to he called that but, its hard getting used to cause i was close to him you kno he was supposed to be my protector , little did i kno he was the one i needed protected from. Moving on. . Gage, my Baby Daddy. Together 13 years and i had to go cause he put his hands on me and busted my ear drum., so that was all. I mean i had to do what i had to to take care of me him, his mom, and her old man. And she embedded in my head that i had to sell myself in order to provide for us (our habits also) and so i did. Thats actually how i got involved with my man now (he was one of my johns, ain't goin to lie) but i fell in love with him over the 4 yearz we were meeting he is just so sweet and so good to me , if there truly is a god he must have heard my prayers, cause man I got real lucky, but he makes me feel sometimes like I'm not ever going to be good enough. Is it because my past?
What is wrong with me?
