Do you think English is hard?

It's a really embarrassing question to ask as someone who has already published a book as a 15 year old and as someone who reads a lot of books and gets a good score in all English literature exams but my god, English feels tough after a level.

I can comfortably read a fiction or self help book or books like 'Power' by Robert Greene but it is just so hard for me to read essays like 'Economic Possibilities for our Grandchildren' by Keynes and those SAT evidence based reading and writing and TOEFL questions, like I need to read them 2-3 times to be really clear about what the texts mean and sometimes I'm so pissed off practicing these questions that I just blankly read them without really getting into it lol.

And I do speak it fluently but when I'm writing or typing then I overthink about what I'm actually writing and the grammar rules just never make sense to me, I just go with whatever feels right.

Do you think English is hard?
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