Mom makes fun of my depression and uses God against me, what am I supposed to do?

[AmeeliahLeh]

I'm currently a minor, a teenager, and last night we got into another heated argument because she's suppressing me from going back to school and blaming everything on me. She told me that everything she is going through right now is all my fault, including things I have absolutely nothing to do with.

She thinks DCFS is going to take me when I'm in school because of something that happened a few months ago. She's not letting me go to school even though they confirmed that the case was closed earlier, but she refuses to believe it.

She tells me to trust in God and pray to him, yet her faith is horrible. My aunt told her to pray about it, and she responded with:

Everyone's against me.

Whenever I talk, she starts rudely rolling her eyes and laughing in my face, saying things like "Here we go" and stuff or telling me to just shut up.

She calls me a manipulator, even though 99% of the time I'm trying to be a better person in her eyes. My older sister literally manipulated her to think she's a good child when she's not.

(by the way, my older sister and I are best friends, and we share everything with each other.)

She says that God told her that I'm manipulating her, and she can tell that I am, but my sister apparently isn't. She blames everything my sister does wrong on me and says stuff like, That spirit transferred!!!

My mom already knows I have depression since I have been to the mental hospital, and I kind of still do self-harm, but she tells me, "No, you don't" or "That's the devil speaking," basically instantly putting me down.

Anyways, she always has the tendency to mention my biological mom's death, saying, "Do you want to end up like them because they aren't here anymore?" She then blamed other people for making me think about my biological mom, but it's her.

carelessly rubbing her death in my face like it's some funny game. My mom and I always argue; my sister is a good child in her eyes, but I'm a demon otherwise.

[Cutegirl06]

Sorry you have to go through this. Your mom sounds like she needs help herself if she thinks you are the devil. And you are not responsible for anything that she does she is trying to manipulate you. Glad you have your older sister to talk with about things.

[AmeeliahLeh]

Yeah, honestly I'm pretty sure she's trying to manipulate me into ig agreeing with her and thinking everything is my fault, this has been going on for 7 something years and it's getting real old but I hate that I have to live with her still.

[Cutegirl06]

I don't blame you

[Anonymous]

You need to be in therapy to sort through this.

[AmeeliahLeh]

I'm supposed to be in therapy after being in the hospital but my mom isn't letting me go, the doctor asked if it's okay on Monday but my mom said do Saturday instead knowing full well we're always busy on Saturday. :(

[ChicoFromThe305]

You should trust God but it seems like she is using God to control you and your connection with god shouldn't have anything to do with yours, you don't need her to have your own connection with God.

[AmeeliahLeh]

Ikr? And I tried to tell her that but she interrupted me.

[ChicoFromThe305]

It's better to just know and avoid trying to correct people that are deluted.

[normalice]

Sounds like she's a classic narcissist. Best you can do is just try to stay out of her vision until you are old enough to move out.

[AmeeliahLeh]

I'm trying but unfortunately we live in a small apartment with absolutely no rooms except the closet where I choose to stay in (it's a walk in) like she comes directly to me and starts talking to me in a tone that I can roll we're about to argue.

[normalice]

Hm. That's rough. I guess there is child protective services if your sister wants to go through with that but I'm afraid you are in what I called "survival mode" when I was going through something similar with my parents.

I did find money placated my step mother above all else. When you turn 16 I recommend some fast food job. Cheerfully hand over about 70% of what you earn - keep the rest stashed for when you leave. If you are even a little bit resentful your mother will get defensive and you will want to avoid that. Just consider it rent.

I joined the army out of high school. You may consider the air force. That's the only fast escape that isn't just into a cardboard box or a ditch unless you have some stable family member somewhere else.

[AmeeliahLeh]

Yeah that's what I was planning to do whrn I get a job, especially since we live in a apartment. Even though my mom makes my life hell I don't like the idea of making hers hell so ofc I'm gonna help her honestly.