My mother always gossips about me; Advice?

My mother always gossips about me; It has been going on for years. She loves to put me down. I'm eighteen and just want to leave without a trace of my family history.

I have posted a thread about how she will discreetly mouth in stores "yeah I know, she's ugly right?" Or she'll make little murmur remarks about my hair.

Two days back when I was working on a screen play she took my step father into the bathroom and whispered. It wasn't even thirty seconds she was in there. I made out the words. "Wouldn't it be funny if someone ripped her a apart. Ruins her."

Fuck her. I don't think I'm ugly, there is a lot worse. No one will ever be the prettiest or the ugliest. There will always be some one who remains that is worse or better.

As I do my make up she'll state "I'm glad I think highly of my self I don't need all these high end clothes to make me feel better about myself." One, I dress for myself and solely for the fun of it. Dressing is a form of art. I wear beautiful arrays of clothing in my home on a daily basis when no ones even around. I follow runway shows and keep up with the trends, but make it my own and original. She labels my out fits as slutty because I wear heels on a daily bases. No flesh was even present besides my hands, face, lower arms, and ankles.

She finds everything I do absurd. Writing, reading, hiking, my movie taste, anything you can name and she'll find it absurd.

Her other children touch me in manners I don't like so I push them off. I will not sit their and be touched. She says and my step father also "you have no right pushing them." They have no right touching me. I want them off. They clearly see the dirty stuff that occurs.

They also laugh and me and what not. They buy me stuff, yet treat me so wrong.

My mother told me a lie and I caught it and I replied "your full of sh*t" she smacked the crap out of me. She calls me the devils child, says I'm a piece of sh*t, and what not.

I'm getting a bunch of plastic surgery, changing my name, and everything. Not fully because her. I am tired of people laughing in my face...

My plastic surgery decision has been made. I'm doing it. I am being very cautious about the doctor I choose. Don't tell me to love myself the way I am.

I want no part in my family.

Any advice?
My mother always gossips about me; Advice?
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