This feeling comes on and off, and when it comes, I can't focus on my surrounding and normal activities. It takes a heavy toll on my daily activities. I have tanned skin, flat wide nose bushy eyebrows and weird black hair, and small hooded eyes. When I smile, my nose becomes effin' wider. I can't help but to envy blonde hair, bigger huge colored eyes, thinner and pointier nose, better eyebrows, better facial structure. Nobody likes wide, flat nose. It causes me to be depressed when I can't fit in. I am so sad.