Do you think he thinks about it?

So there's this guy in my life that is in a sense forbidden fruit for me. He is my lifelong best friends ex (they were together for years) I always found him attractive but would never actually do anything with him because I know it would hurt my friend. We still have mutual friends and he ended up on a weekend cabin trip with me and some of our mutuals. There was a time I was walking up the stairs in front of him and he jokingly said "hurry up" and picked me up by my torso and lifted me up a couple stairs. That's all that happened between us and there was no intent on my behalf for him to touch me but I can't stop myself from thinking about it. Am I awful for being so affected by this? Do you think this was just him being playful or do you think he is affected by it the same? Do you think he thinks about that moment as well? I'm 27 years old and don't know why such a small gesture is getting to me this much and why I hope that he is affected by it as well.

Do you think he thinks about it?
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