It's my 40! Birthday today... I feel old and depressed. Lol. Anyone else hate birthdays?

I honestly would rather hide on my birthdays. So much pressure on you to be happy and entertain.
My ideal birthday would be to run away on my kayack for the entire day. With my youngest daughter... and maybe boyfriend lol.
Its my 40! Birthday today... I feel old and depressed. Lol. Anyone else hate birthdays?
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Thank you all so much for your warm wishes and kind words. Just been a tough year and I honestly hate birthdays... lol. but again thank you so much it really helped make my day. Sorry for lateness of reply but I worked into 230pm then went for a kayack with family over to friends beach front house for diner. They kept my kids and now my boyfriend and I are relaxing alone.. for first time in a long time About to go to bed to end this day on a perfect note... much love to you all. Xo
It's my 40! Birthday today... I feel old and depressed. Lol. Anyone else hate birthdays?
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