Twerking videos and your boyfriend?

[aaaaaaaaaaaaxo]

okay, whenever my boyfriend gets messed up ( usually Xanax etc) he will look up the stupid little twerk videos of teens on vine/Instagram/ YouTube... just why? why? I was sending nudes to a few exes when I was messed up but it meant nothing, but still. there is a difference I think in girls sending and guys watching.. it sounds kind of crazy. it just makes me so upset/betrayed/jealous I literally got into a panic attack and beat the shit out of him. he went on my Instagram "to get me back" for sending nudes, and left it (pretty sure) so I can see. I asked and he denied about a half hour, then finally admitted it after many threats... then he said he just went on the ONE account, didn't look at anything, and clicked the back button. do I believe this? just what do I do. he's done this before, with attempts to not okay me know. I'm just so hurt how do I feel? we've been together almost 3 and a half years and this happed a few times.. once I also found a playboy calander wedged in his closed and threw it out (gift from brother) just please give me some thoughts and advice.

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+1 y

none of those answers are helpful. they didn't show my face. he is also a addict. im not, im kinda fed up in this relationship and needed someone to talk to.

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okay but you need to fuckin understand HE IS A ADDICT. i am NOT. i need someone normal to talk to. not be abused and used

[NovaLeon]

Are your serious? You think your boyfriend looking at twerk videos and pornography of women he doesn't even know and never will, is worse then you sending nudes of yourself to guys you were once sexually involved and in a relationship with? What you did is 10x worse than what your boyfriend did. You had absolutely no right to go off on him like that, if anything he's the one who should have went off on and broke up with you. You completely betrayed your boyfriend. You're exposing your body to other men you used to be with, making yourself look like a slut and your boyfriend look like an idiot. I can understand you being jealous of him looking at those videos, but almost EVERY GUY, taken or single, does. It doesn't mean you're not good enough for him, it's just a fantasy. Guys get horny sometimes and their girlfriend isn't around so they beat off to porn. Some guys develop an addiction to that kind of stuff and it's hard for them to stop. But unlike your boyfriend looking at twerk videos of girls he doesn't and never will know, what you did was actually cheating. If I was your boyfriend, I would have broken up with you immediately after you sent nudes to your ex; I don't care how messed up you were.

[NovaLeon]

It doesn't matter if your face was in the nudes or not, you still sent naked pictures of yourself to someone else besides your boyfriend. There is absolutely nothing that can justify that. As far as him being an addict goes, to what are you referring to? Porn or pills? If it's pills, then you need to see about getting him help, having an intervention, getting his family and friends involved possibly. If he absolutely refuses to get any help, and you're not happy in the relationship, then you should just leave him; as hard as it may be for you to do.

[DudePerfect]

This dude gets it

[Anonymous]

wow sending full on nudes of yourself to guys is 1000x worse than just watching stupid twerk videos of strangers...

[Crazyinlove2003]

im 13 years in... you want honesty, tell him to hide it, delete it. Don't ever let you see it. You don't ask, he don't offer.. BEST DECISION of my life.. we watch it together now... During the time he was hiding it there was a trusted agreement we met along the years because MY insecurity, we have agreed on certain sites, never beyond a watchful eye, but I watched them videos a lot. over exposure so I didn't care any more lol unless I am lacking in the relationship. Just tell him to respect you & you respect him. (It's an illness)

[smexiliciousss]

there is nothing wrong with him looking up twerking videos... and you will find thaqt when you grow up your husband will most likely watch porn.. what are you gonna do, beat him?

[itsybitsy09]

Your nudes are worst so chill out with twerkin videos it's not pornography like yours. Would you it rather be his exes nudes?