I don't want to be a part of society anymore.

[Anonymous]

The day before yesterday something changed inside of me. I just walked out of work in the middle of a job and went home. I haven't ate or slept since Monday because I just haven't been sleepy or hungry. I don't really want to do anything. I don't want to talk to anyone in person ever again. I don't want to leave my house anymore. I don't want to do anything.

I haven't gotten up out of this chair since yesterday morning. The only way to describe my mood is neutral.

I just can't get up the enthusiasm to care anymore. The logical side of me is telling me this is a problem but the emotional side of me can't do anything. I don't know why I don't want to do anything. I don't know why I've just given up.

I know I need to call a doctor or something but I can't get up the energy to do it. If someone came here and knocked on the door I wouldn't get up and if the phone rang I wouldn't answer it.

I feel physically different than I used to.

[ArtyGirl]

Sounds like a form of a panick attack- You're experiencing depersonalisation and derealisation.

The reasonings behind these attacks are varied, typically relative to stress.

Irrelevant of if you ever 'felt' stressed, this is your body's means of telling you that you are overworked.

It's pretty difficult to comprehend that your mind is ten steps ahead in understanding the jeapordy of your health, but something isn't right with the way you conduct your life.

The last thing you should be concentrating on is whether you are 'able' to take this time of work- it's crucial you do, and that you revert into your mind and take time for utter relaxation with absolutely no mental stimuli.

[Asker]

I was homeless for 3 years before I found this job. They told me if I don't come in tonight, that I'm going to be fired.

I know I won't be able to go. It will only be a few more weeks until rent is due. I won't be able to pay, I'll be kicked out and I don't really care enough to do anything about.

[ArtyGirl]

Well it's pretty obvious why these anxiety attacks are being inflicted on you.

You do realize if you managed to conjure up the energy to seek assistance medically,

that your employment could have a serious case on its hands for firing you?

I know it's very difficult to be pro-active at this time, I simply reccommend you contact someone who can take these steps in dealing with your work and GP's for you,

Good luck.

[Asker]

It's not that simple.

[ArtyGirl]

Not simple and not possible are two different things.

[Asker]

I'll be honest. I really don't care what happens from here on out. I'm not moving from this chair ever again. I haven't ate anything since Monday and I just can't really get up the enthusiasm to care.

[ArtyGirl]

Your call,

just realize that if perfect strangers are taking an interest in your well-being, understand that surely there are people in your lives who would appreciate being reached out to.

i won't bother you any more

[Anonymous]

Take a week and do nothing. It won't hurt you. Let loved ones know you are taking a break from reality for a week and ask that they not contact you. ..If you are able to manage that, then just spend the week doing nothing and feeling numb. Do nothing other then what you feel like. Just for the week, don't worry about it, don't feel bad for it, just shut down. After your week is up, if you still feel numb and unmotivated, then at this point you do need to find the motivation to contact a doctor or a counselor. It is okay to indulge yourself for a week and take a" vacation" but you do not want things to get out of hand and let your life fall apart. Good luck to you.

[Asker]

They wouldn't let me take that much time off from work.

[sa230e]

That's how I've been for the better part of the last decade. Trust me when I say it sucks. It sounds like you've got depression just like I do. When it affects you physically like the way you describe it's more than just sadness.

You need to seek help from a doctor on this one. It's not going to go away on it's own. I fooled myself into thinking it was normal for so long that I lost some of the best years of my life to it. It quite literally sucks the life out of you. If it wasn't for my parents insisting on getting help for me I'd probably be either out on the street or dead.

Trust me, you should talk to your doctor.

[Asker]

Everybody here is giving great advice. I can't complain about that.

This isn't something I'm going to be able to fix this time. I do need to talk to a Doctor, but I'm not going to be able to get up from this chair. There is no way I'll be able to talk to someone face to face.

This is all I want. To just sit here in front of my computer and do nothing.

[Mesonfielde]

And, what is the question? I advise you to go to eat something, go to sleep, and find the reason to how you can fix whatever is bothering you, or at least how to accept it.

[Anonymous]

Go watch The Shawshank Redemption... "get busy livin', or get busy dyin'." If you don't want to deal with people, don't. Figure out what will make your life worthwhile, then do those things. Nobody, not even a psychotherapist can tell you what those things are, it's for you to determine. Life is about discovery, but to discover you MUST start the journey. Make a list of your interests and disinterests, then start to find a way to implement those interests into your life. These things will make your life INTERESTING for you and worthwhile. All you have to do is decide to do these things, then do them.Good luck

[Anonymous]

Welcome to the club haha. It's called Comfortably Numb