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I don't want to be in a relationship?

I am not afraid of commitment, neither I am bored. I just don't want to be in a romantic relationship. I have had realisations and epiphany that I don't need this at this point of my life I have been dating ever since I was in early teens, to fill up the void and neglect that I couldn't get from my home, I have been heavily codependent on them, not to the point to cause any harm on my partner but rather on myself. I have always been hard on myself and somewhere along the trajectory I have dealt with a person and his abuse both physical and mental for 2 years, I somehow got out of it and still ended up in another relationship, which luckily turned out to be the best. I love my boyfriend so much, we are in a healthy relationship for 4 years now, but the thing is in my journey of self development, which involved taking therapy since I have dealt with mental issues, I have realised that I don't want to be in a relationship and I want to build myself up even more beacuse years of self loathing really put me so much behind, I have ADHD so some of you can assume it's a little harder to get in track. Nonetheless, I am trying my best. But I am so confused about the relationship aspect. It is bothering me so much. I really don't have much time or energy to give the time and love that is required in a relationship. It's good to have expectations and it's nice to meet them. I don't want him to grow resentful of me, we have talked about it before but he somehow Dodge that talk entirely.
I don't want to be in a relationship?
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