If he misses me why won’t he tell me?

I’ve been sleeping with this guy for 17 years on and off. He has a relationship and so do I. But we always come back to each other. He reaches out recently and asked where I was - this is code for I want to see you. I wasn’t close by and he ended the convo really quickly saying he was just wondering and was just curious and was just at work. He gave me every excuse and I said just say you miss me, say you want to see me. He wouldn’t and ghosted everything else I said - this is his pattern anytime I call him out on feelings he retreats. What makes this time particularly important is during a fight we had not too long ago he said he only wants to see me and only thinks of me when he’s inebriated- which he wasn’t this time or the last. This man will say thing and do anything even if it hurts me to make sure I don’t think he has feelings for me. The man has poured his heart out to me numerous times but then always back tracks after. So this week I messaged him saying I’m around - reversing things a bit. Instead of responding he looks at my stories on Instagram - another thing he does when he refuses to answer or address me. Why can’t he just say he misses me or he wants to see me why so much bs

If he misses me why won’t he tell me?
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