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Has anybody grew up at a time when slim/skinny was in?

I’ve been struggling with weight loss for years and nowadays the beauty standards are a little overweight or chubby “curvy”.
I’ve been heavy and a big girl all my life. I’ve been told why would I lose weight and stop trying because men don’t like skin and bones and chubby is in. Tall people should carry more weight. I mean yes that’s true but it doesn’t mean we should decline our health. I’m 5’9” 1/4 and my current weight is 220s. I want to get down to 170lbs or 175lbs.
I don’t follow beauty standards. I grew up when thin was the beauty standard and it made me feel horrible about myself and body, even though I needed to lose weight because I was already in the 230s as a teenager.
As a preteen or teen I grew up at a time when thin was in. Skinny! I hated my body and wanted my body to be like those thin girls. I wanted to wear the cute clothes that they wore which I would look gross in and I would have a muffin too.
I started losing weight after my mom said do something about it and quit whining when I complained about being fat. I was always jealous of slimmer girls. It pissed me off when girls slimmer than me say their fat. REALLY? What am I then? Fast forward to my youth adult years. I got down to 189 I believe and that’s the slimmest I was in my adult years and I was about 23-24 years old. After my close college friend passed unexpectedly I was depressed and gained most of the weight back. I bet some of the people thought I looked better when I gained it back, but I felt disgusting when I stuffed myself with junk food. I went from 189 back to 220 I think. I realized what the hell I was doing and I needed to get back to working out and eating right. I was self sabotaging myself. I do measurements nowadays instead of focusing on numbers. I won’t give up.
I know everyone has something about their besties they isn’t like, slim, fat, thick, athletic. Did anybody else grow up when slim/skinny was in?

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I’ve always been envious and jealous of girls with flat bellies or toned bellies. I’ve always wanted but I was always chubby, with a flabby belly. I’ll never be those girls. My belly was a little flat when I lost weight before but I did so much weight lifting.
Has anybody grew up at a time when slim/skinny was in?
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