Why would I look fat in my photos or am I just thinking it?

I mean I’ve been working out and lost some weight but honestly I don’t think I’m doing a great job. I looked at one of my photos and my thighs looked HUGE! I mean HUGE. Not in a thick way, I mean in an unhealthy way. I don’t know if it’s the photos that makes me look fat but I know I’m not at a healthy weight and I do binge eat sometimes. I won’t lie. I need to stop that or I’ll never get to a healthy weight.
I have to face the fact that I’m fat and I need a plan. A strict food plan. I’m sick of being a big girl. I do workout but I don’t always eat good. I’ll be honest. I’m on my period but it’s no excuse for me to binge eat and that shit. I’m 5’9” 1/4 and in the 211lbs or heavier.
I might as well just accept that I will always be a big girl and my weight just won’t change and I should accept it. I’m not built to be fit or slim. I am curvy but I’m not at a healthy weight.
Anyways I never liked looking at myself in the photos because of my weight. I should probably fast and eat less. I’m done. I won’t give up.

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I see other women that are curvy but fit, or slimmer, I feel bad and envious but I need to not give up.
Why would I look fat in my photos or am I just thinking it?
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