Why am I so terrified of more weight gain during pregnancy?

I have lost weight. My boyfriend has mentioned it. I feel lighter too. I would say I'm about 100 kg.

I've always struggled with my body image and weight since I was 10, I'm now 26. That's 16 years of an eating disorder, body shamed etc.

I am active. I walk everyday. I can touch my toes. I can do a lot of things. My diet isn't the best but that can be changed.

I'm just terffied of becoming an overweight blob after having a baby. I struggle to lose weight rn as it is and I can't care the thought of being so big that I can't move :(

Is this normal? Any advice would be brilliant thanks.
Why am I so terrified of more weight gain during pregnancy?
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