Marriage & Weddings

Is it fucked up that I faked my own journal?

So essentially I overheard my husband saying that he's not my type and that I don't find him attractive and I have told him before I wouldn't be with him if I didn't like him it's not like he's a rich man we work retail so it's not like there's another reason besides I like him to be with him.

Well he also knows that I was kind like a squirrel with journals as a kid so I have old journals all over the place that have the most random information about me for instance last year I found one that just contained a list of my favorite songs at the time. He for whatever reason is nosy and likes to read them when he finds them. So

So I dug through a old bookbag that I know had a few of those old journals I liked to write in I was kind picky about them I always wanted them to have a hard cover and have some kind of design on them like Pegasus drawn on like it was part of Greek pottery or look like old map or a science diagram or something don't ask why I don't know.

Dug out what looked like one I opened and shut a lot

Grabbed a mechanical pencil and wrote out a page titled "dream guy"

And wrote out some details about my husband along with some random things I knew my teenage ass would have put like

vampire fangs and claws

But would also put things about him

Things like

blue eyes

dark brown hair

Tall

It's be cool if he wore glasses like me.

A little pudgy to be more comfortable to snuggle.

Wrote down things I like about his personality.

And such added a few random things like that I wanted to live in Australia 🦘 🌏

Smudge up some lines driped some water on the page and let it dry put it back in the old backpack moved it ware I knew my husband would eventually find it and his nosy nature would encourage him to investigate it.

Is it wrong to trick him like that?

Is it fucked up that I faked my own journal?
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