Questions: Marriage & Weddings

My wife cheated on me with my two best friends. I found out this morning when they admitted to sleeping with her, and showed me the pictures theye took of her naked. When I confronted my wife she suddenly became angry and shouted "because you're crappy in bed ok? so fucking deal with it!!!" I was repeatedly sexually abused when I was 8 years old, and I find sex too hard deal with. The whole thing is too emotional for me, and she knows this. I love her so should I forgive her?

Now this phrase hasn't originated by gag but by a lot of people some online, some in real life that women tend to marry for resources while men marry for love. To clarify, what they mean is women know how to exactly press a guys button, manipulate and make herself seem in love with him.
They know how to go after men who make money, and efficiently as possible got themselves in the door and now married (studies actual show husbands on average make 20% more than their wise for the bear minimum). All under the rouse of love. We see evidence of this when we hear many women say they just want to get married already so they can get fat. We also see other instances when a male wises up a little and questions female behavior only to get shammed and bash for even having the though.

Example - Suppose a girl went out with a completely different type of guys in her youth. College athletes, real estate agents with swagger etc. Yet, by he late 20's she goes for an IT nerd she wouldn't have given a chance in her early 20's.



Guys who aren't brainwash by social programming and take a step back to question "Hey i'm nothing like any of the men she pursued in the past (which gives a pattern of what she likes) why does she want me?"

Many women and some men will chime in that the man is being insecure for asking a very real question about a woman's intention in wanting to get with him.

We also see evidence of resource extraction when 70% of divorces are initiated by women in marriages where the laws are in favor of extracting money from the man.

I have CF and so although I'm only 16 I've never had a girlfriend and I worry that no women will want to be with me due to it. My lifespan is only up to 40 years and I almost got diabetes in 2012 due to my sugar levels at 140 at the time. My sugar levels are now in the 70s and my doctor said with how much better I'm doing since I joined a gym I could go as far as 53, but it doesn't change that I'm infertile, cough a lot, can't grow anymore (I'm 5'9"), may develop a disability in my adulthood, and I need expensive medicine to stay alive. I'm not saying I need them to take care of me but there are many unfortunate limits to what I can do for them like give them kids. Girls, considering all these things would you still marry a man if he had CF? I know I already asked this but I just want more opinions and please tell me the truth