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Help, I have anger issues and my Roommate keeps goading me into lashing out at him so he can assault me and claim he acted in "self defense"?

I suffer from anger management and misophonia because my parents would always yell at me. Now loud noises make me lose all self control. My roommate has pet birds and I agreed to live with him because I knew someone who had the same species and it was quiet. But I later learned that was because that individual bird was really old. But the noise the birds made is driving me crazy. My Roommate kept them in his room but I could still hear them scream. I told him to get them to shut up but he said because they were in my room you can just deal with it. We kept getting into arguments but then one day he said he'd had enough and got them excited so they'd yell like crazy and I started yelling, telling him to make them be quiet. But he only taunted and teased me saying "awww, is the little boy mad? Does baby want his bottle?" I lost it, threw a punch but he deflected it, then counterpunched me in the face then picked me up and threw me to the ground (he lifts weights and is combat trained). Then he picked me up by the collar, dragged me to my room and told me that if you get pissy again, the birds are going to scream and fucking scream before throwing me in my room and slamming the door. A few times since then I would get mad about the birds or something else he'd do and he'd do the same thing. Make the birds scream and taunt me until I lashed out and just use that as an excuse to hurt me.
Help, I have anger issues and my Roommate keeps goading me into lashing out at him so he can assault me and claim he acted in "self defense"?
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