What's something you like to do that isn't obvious and would like to share?

[TheMajesticKing777]

[Chris_7565]

I have some obsessive compulsive tendencies so sometimes I need to compartmentalize things. I go and buy a bunch of blue rays for cheap. I watch them, organize them, then garbage most of them except for a few that I like. Then I go and buy more. Sometimes I buy the same ones over again and garbage them again.
I do that with G@G too. I have had probably over 100 different accounts because I obsess over things and delete them and start over.

[TheMajesticKing777]

You've never tried to control the compulsions?

[Chris_7565]

They kind of move around. Like if I didn't organize my blue rays I would probably start doing other OCD type behaviours like b! inking a lot, or feeling the need to pray all the time so nothing bad happens, or the compulsion to say "I don't wish for that" over 4 times in my head anytime I hear the word "Wish."
I get crazy, so sometimes just sorting through movies is the best way to focus that problem.

[TheMajesticKing777]

So they are random? They change randomly?

[Chris_7565]

The compulsions?
I seem to only need one at a time. Right now the only thing OCD I do is sort through movies and I bite the inside of my lip sometimes.
If I stopped that I would probably start doing something else like worrying about my son constantly, or blinking a lot. It's just weird.
I also have tendencies to get addictions. When I'm in a relationship I just focus on the woman and she's everything to me at all times. When I'm single I need to drink booze, or eat, or use G@G to occupy myself.

[TheMajesticKing777]

I think the lip biting is more of an anxiety thing cause I'm sure many people do it, I have done it at times

[Chris_7565]

Yeah I'm full of weird habits, lol.
I hide all these things well though. Nobody knows I'm so fucked in the head except my ex used to catch me kneeling and praying sometimes because my mind was racing.

[TheMajesticKing777]

You aren't fucked in the head tho, they are compulsions my bro had them and he wasn't crazy or whatever lol

[Chris_7565]

Like any weird affliction they probably give me super powers in other ways, lol.
I have the best Blue Rays, and I'm a very attentive boyfriend.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Imagine if one day you wake up with some type of super powers, that would be cool

[Chris_7565]

I do feel like I'm weird and I retain a lot of information because I obsess about stuff maybe?
I can also play guitar and make people laugh at parties and stuff. My mind switches me into whatever character I need to be to get by. I can be a tough guy, I can be a funny guy, I can be a sweet guy, I can be an intellectual guy, I can be anything, but when I'm alone I'm just obsessing and organizing things constantly so I can think.

[TheMajesticKing777]

You sure you aren't bipolar

[Chris_7565]

I don't think I'm moody enough to be bipolar, that's more like my ex.
I could have mild multiple personality disorder or something, but sometimes I'm just confused about who I am because I feel I can tap into any side of me kinda like an actor does.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Isn't that bipolar?

[Chris_7565]

I mean by definition Bipolar disorder is more of a contrast between feeling good, and then switching into a severe depression.
BIPOLAR DISORDER: Formerly called manic depression, is a mental health condition that causes extreme mood swings that include emotional highs (mania or hypomania) and lows (depression).

What I have is more obsessive compulsive disorder, anxiety ( I worry about my child constantly and I was very protective of him, and I never let anyone else babysit him except my ex, I was always with him and even took him to work with me sometimes). I also have a bit of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from the way my marriage ended, and how my brother, his wife and my father all died over a short period all around that time. I lost so much at once that it broke me.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Oh, is there a way of controlling it tho

[Chris_7565]

I'm working on it.
Since all those things happened I've done a lot of damage to myself, but I'm slowly recovering.
First step was no more alcohol.
Second step was to block my ex-wife and stop talking to her.
Third was to avoid my drinking buddy and his sexy wife, lol.
Fourth step will be to quit G@G so I can stop being reminded of my past relationships.
Fifth step will be to eat healthier, and get my shit together.
Basically, I need to rebuild my life and I feel like my obsessions won't be so powerful, because I won't have so much inner turmoil and anxiety, and trauma constantly.
That's my hope anyway. I avoid medications as much as possible and would rather fix my problems than drug my head.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Wait why does gag remind you of your ex? 😂

[Chris_7565]

It's just that G@G is mostly relationship questions and a lot of cheating stuff.
There isn't a day that I'm not answering a question here with a story about my ex, or an experience we had during our 15 year relationship. I have so much experience from that relationship, but it's also very difficult to put it in the past, and let go of those feelings and memories. I can't keep digging into those past relationships I had everyday, or I'll never move on. G@G is a very unnatural hobby, that keeps me reliving my past traumatic experiences.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Yea that actually makes sense, you should distance yourself

[MCheetah]

Kickboxing. Because I'm like 300 pounds, most people assume I couldn't do anything athletic. I also ride a bicycle for about 30 minutes total, daily.

[JustAnj]

Dancing, all kinds of dancing. I sing too but that more obvious to people I know because my dad is a underground musician.

My favorite is contemporary dancing. 😌

[TheMajesticKing777]

So how often do you dance?

[JustAnj]

Whenever I get the chance ☺️ I love all kinds of music too so it's fun to try to make up some new moves to different sounds. 🥰

[TheMajesticKing777]

It's not like this right cause let's be honest this isn't dancing

[TheMajesticKing777]

https://youtu.be/gPbVRpRgHso

[JustAnj]

Are you secretly admitting to a desire and love for raving. 🤪😆

[TheMajesticKing777]

What's raving?

[JustAnj]

Basically what you just saw except in the dark. Lol

[TheMajesticKing777]

Nah I first saw this in a meme and I just gotta search up emotions under a bridge dancing and it pops up lol

[TheMajesticKing777]

Emos*

[JustAnj]

😆 That's so random, LOve it.

[TheMajesticKing777]

Lol.

[jennifer_bloom]

I’m really good at cheering people up - better than a clown.

[TheMajesticKing777]

I think clowns scare people more than they cheer people up

[ethanallen]

I like sex with age "extremes." I date and sleep with women regardless of age but I like to hook up with women who are more than 30 years younger or 30 years older. Both have a special place.

[Greergr]

So 10 year olds or 70 year olds?

[ethanallen]

@Greergr 25 to 85

[jahaims]

Fight

[TheMajesticKing777]

Sounds legit

[Anonymous]

Picking up litter along dirt roads.

[TheMajesticKing777]

That's pretty cool, that's good for the environment

[Rebecka33]

Poetry.