As a now 35 year-old woman, I've wondered if this urge to laugh by myself will ever disappear. Long ago, two different teachers in school noticed this. One complained to my parents (my father replied with an ''I know, we're working on the laughing part) and another one simply asked with a worried expresssion ''Are you okay''?
I used to be harshly reprimanded about this at home. My parents treated this as if I was acting out of mischievousness. It wasn't done on purpose. I was either triggered by something or it would just come out suddenly out of nowhere. If someone asked what was funny, my answer would be ''I don't know''. Over the years, the laughing part reduced significantly and most of the times I was able to catch myself from laughing and control it. Nowadays I don't do it much but when it happens, I'm alone or try to hide it from public. I don't want people thinking I'm crazy.
Will this eventually disappear? I'm funny aware that laughing by myself and not having self-control will cause look weird in people. Though two days ago while I was in my Judo class with my boyfriend and our instructor, something briefly triggered me. I don't know what was funny but I giggled for a couple seconds but then caught myself and stopped.
