I’m a freshman in high school and there’s a guy I like and he likes me. He asked me to homecoming and we had an amazing night even tho we’re both rather shy and self conscious (I’m probably more so but we have great friends who are ready to push us out of our comfort zones and dance and relax and have fun). I hangout with him as often as I can and he does the same. I don’t know if his feelings are as strong as mine (probably not) and I don’t even know what falling in love feels like, or if its even possible for someone who is a teen, but I do know the feeling I have when I’m around him… its hard to describe. It’s like falling and flying and everything wonderful in the world and even after a bad day its like I’m recharged when I’m around him. I constantly want to be around him and find myself scanning the people around me, looking for him. After hanging out, I’m both happy and a bit sad because he either has to go to football practice or I have to go home. He’s funny and sweet and I love being around him, I looked through my texts to find a pic I took and realized we text so often, I couldn’t find it! I talk to him for hours over calls and FaceTime and text after school and suddenly the rest of my life feels less inviting than being around him. Even in the morning, before class, we hangout and after I’m in class I find myself sad (and we occasionally text each other during class, I know its not good and I should be paying to the teacher and all that). I’m 14 turning 15 next march and I’ve always been told that teens can’t be truly in love and that we’re just “too young” and “our brains aren’t fully developed” and “its not real to love someone that young”. The feeling that I have around him, its wonderful and perfect and a bit frightening that my happiness can be so dependent on something so unpredictable… I’ve never felt a crush this strong so I’m wondering, could I be falling in love?
Sorry about the really long paragraph, thanks for taking the time to read it :)
