Anyone else get pointless depression in the dark?

[MementoMori777]

It happens at night or when I'm in a dark room or both, anyone else?

[AaronKrieger]

Yeah, but I just try to not focus on it or fuel it most of the time. Most people overthink when it's night time and feel sad to a degree, but all you need is sleep.

However, sometimes I do let myself feel it and process it, so I can reflect on it. Just get it out of my system, that way it's not bottled up, as 90% of the time I live my life ignoring that shit.

[MementoMori777]

Yea that makes sense, so how do you not fuel it?

[AaronKrieger]

Look at your brain/body objectively in how it responds to things and treat yourself accordingly based on that. Reflect on the habits in your life, so that you can weed out which ones make you sad, tired, happy, angry, lazy, and that sort of that. Controlling your habits can also change your mental state and mindset about shit.

For example, I will immediately do school work after getting from college that I need to do or else I will be lethargic about it. Taking a 'break' by doing something entertaining will make it harder for me to be motivated to do that work. If I am uncomfortable while working, then I am more productive and feel like I am in a state of 'I need to get shit done'.

So stop your habits that endorse your negative/depressing feelings at night and try to do ones that make you happier or at least content.

[MementoMori777]

Interesting, I'm going to give that a try, thanks bro, that's some good advice. 💯🙏

[NathanDavis]

I am the dark...

[MementoMori777]

😂😂

[LaFemmeFatale_1]

Nope. At this point - whether in dark or light- I feel peace, deep, nice, strange feeling of peace.

Try to enjoy that moment of solitude at night as a way to get to know yourself.

[MementoMori777]

Nah I'd just dig up my past and find myself in the wrong place, you are a peaceful soul tho, don't change that 😂🙌

[LaFemmeFatale_1]

I used to be a reckless soul, kind of.

But every time something I was really scared of happened in my life, I found peace.

At 22, I met a guy who I had a crush on my whole childhood, he didn’t recognize me that day, he started crushing on me, he told me something likewhat you have just said “You are a peaceful soul and I crave that peace of yours. “. He was reckless and wild, he proposed to run in China together, but thankfully I wasn’t that reckless and I went to China alone, where I finally met my ex fiance.

When I met him I was independent, happy, peaceful and strong, he always admired that. He said if Hulk could be a girl, that would be me haha and he said I was his hero. He was impressed how nothing in the world seemed to worry me, he was surprised that my house exploded and I could laugh at that instead of crying.

During long distance I fell into a deep depression though, I couldn’t imagine how can I love someone as strongly as I loved him and not be able to see and touch him, I lost a track of my life. Those were the lowest two years of my life. I thought I would die of sadness and unhappiness. He tried his best to cheer me up but I was unhappy unless we could meet. And we couldn’t and couldn’t.

I understand why he broke it off. He didn’t want to be dragged down into my depression. Every soul craves peace and happiness.

[LaFemmeFatale_1]

I now read a book “Norwegian Wood”, there are two girls, Naoko and Midori, Naoko is a bit like me when I was during depression and Midori is like me when he met me, I think any man falls harder for girls like Midori.

But to become a girl like Midori, I think you ahould survive being Naoko and some point experience so much pain in life that it doesn’t hurt you anymore, instead you choose to see the best in life. Because you have already seen the worst and you have already seen your lowest.

I am sad I wasn’t Midori for my ex but I think I can be Midori in future. I don’t know if it makes sense or why I am writing this to you. I just fell like saying.

So, in your situation, you can see that you’ve been through so much darkness that you can appreciate light much better. I hope that you won’t change that either and I hope you’ll find peace with yourself.

In your situation, you can look at it like, you’ve been through enough darkness in your life and now even the tiny bit of light cheers you up. That’s a good trait as well. Be able to see the light and appreciate it but I hope that someday you can find peace in darkness as well.

I know I talked a lot, I am so talkative lol

[MementoMori777]

You do talk a lot, but I like it, you are someone that can keep a conversation going if you wanted too and would fill the room with positivity, if electricity was a person, you'd fit the picture 😆

but personally I can't find happiness in darkness, I fight it, my past is a part of me and I guess it's just a darkness I'll carry with me cause I can't change it but I learned to live with it.

And by the way I like you better when you are very talkative, mostly when you talk about your books, I got no idea what you were talking about Midori and Naoko but don't be afraid to express yourself through your books if you feel like it lol.

[Apulu_Imback]

Night is my healing time!

[MementoMori777]

Why? Lol

[Apulu_Imback]

I just love nights. It's peaceful and calm and no one's there to judge me because everyone is closed in their room, in their bed. Even when I'm low, nights are like my healing time.

[MementoMori777]

That makes sense

[Miss_Lexi]

Yea if im alone it does happen

[MementoMori777]

Yea I've noticed, I notice if I turn a light on I feel better

[Miss_Lexi]

I can relate to this so hard

[MementoMori777]

😆😆😆

[Anonymous]

Never heard of that before.

[MementoMori777]

Fair enough