Usually. I have secretly been hoping for something to happen to me in traffic or to have a sneak aneurism or heart attack. I drink excessive amounts of caffeine, take pills, eat junk food and whatever else I can to speed up the process. Just sick of my life and the people who fake their appreciation for me then do me dirty when I'm not around. So I take measures of my own in private to try and ensure it can't happen for too much longer.