From EMT to web developer to loser. Can anyone relate to this?

[IHaveRespawned]

I am 31 years old. I have held 25 jobs since the age of 15. I have been hospitalized in a psych hospital more than 20 times. In my late teens/early 20s, I became obsessed with finding another virgin to lose my virginity to. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old young woman, and later I was arrested and convicted of stalking after trying to desperately and pathetically win her love. I ended up losing my EMT license after the entire ordeal. Then I went into software engineering and because I became desperate after trying to find a woman without a romantic past (after realizing being a woman's first love was more important than taking her virginity), I managed to get myself into an even more troublesome situation. I ended up getting kicked out of the software engineering community and being blacklisted all around town.

I finally managed to find the love of my life, and we are now married. We are each other's first real relationship. I regret all my stupidity from the past, but how as it stands, I am 31 years old and barely leave the house. Now I just collect disability.

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[Ez-Bri-Z_v2]

I am sure there are others who can relate to being interested in minors and ruining their lives acting out on it.

Using the diagnosis of being autistic is absolutely no excuse. There are tons of high functioning autistic people who don't stalk minors or being obsessed with "finding a person without a romantic past". That's just a creepy mindset, not autism.

You holding a more jobs than years you could legally work is MAYBE a mix of your autism but also just your personality in general.

[IHaveRespawned]

I am only interested in my wife and don't even have the slightest interest in other women. I barely even leave the house. I am dysfunctional as of now, and I feel completely directionless. I just collect disability benefits now and work on thinks around the house.

[Ez-Bri-Z_v2]

Bruh... I am literally agoraphobic and I still don't collect from the goverment.

Also, NOW you don't have interests in others, but you did have interests in minors in your past which you've openly admitted.

[IHaveRespawned]

I was interested in women without a romantic past. I don't have to worry about that now because I am happily married.

[Cyfris]

Sucks to suck dude. I hope you enjoy the life you made for yourself. You deserve it.

[IHaveRespawned]

I am autistic and severely mentally ill. I am a loser. I had all sorts of career aspirations from when I was young, but I just have to come to the realization I am not able to be a valued member of society. As soon as I can come to peace with that, the better I will be.