Questions

I am turning 30 next week. I am newly engaged as of July. We are each other's very first serious relationship. We met on New Years Eve on December 31, 2023. Like me, she also has a birthday this month. She will turn 27.

I most certainly love her, although I wish we could have met when we were both younger or had some connection in our youth of some sorts. I am her very first kiss after all, but a part of me feels sad that we missed that youth component with each other.

She had minimal dating experience in high school, but obviously it wasn't anything significant considering I am her first kiss.

I feel like overall, I will have that lingering regret of not experiencing young love/romance when I was younger.

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My current partner told me in the past she was very interested in being mother, and eventually starting a treatment to do so.

But what I didn't expected is that she was about to come home today, and tell me that she had just started it without mentioning me nothing prior to that.

This came after having an argument the last day, where I told her I had doubts about the relationship due to certain behaviors of her making me uncomfortable frequently.

But the argument ended being solved. Or at least, that's what I thought.

But today she came home, showed good behavior, complimented me, and then BOOM! Dropped a surprise.

The point is: I greatly suspect this is a manipulation tactic to hurry me up, and not looking into the relationship objectively.

What do you think?