I had been dating this woman who is a bit older than me we had been together for 3months, everything was great but went really fast! she broke up with me out of the blue because she felt overwhelmed and wasn’t ready for a relationship, one week later we get back together, and 3weeks after that we break up again for the same reason, shit happens, i cut her off and go no contact, a while later she calls me in the middle of the night, sobbing and telling me she can’t live without me, i say what’s done is done etc, she kept texting and i agreed to meet her and have a conversation, she said she realised that she wanted me in her life, we just need to go slow because this is the first time she had dated someone (she was married for 13 years)
I accepted because i love her, the first week and a half, its going great, i was on vacation, the texts and calls were super cute, lots of effort and affection, various emojis and the works, same as when we were together in the beginning, i come back, and the texts start to change, colder tone, most of the chat is about her, i rarely get asked about my day etc, basically not showing interest or putting any effort, when i was on vacation, we ended every day with an “i love you” and since I’ve been back, she texted me “i love you” exactly once, and it’s been a month since am back, she rarely says it in person too and almost always during sex except for a couple of times….
We haven’t labeled what we are, but we had a big argument and she said that she felt ready for the next step but now after the argument, she feels like we need to wait a bit longer.
am just so lost, am i being used for sex? Am i just a place holder? she has stated multiple times that am not an option, am her choice and she wants to be with me, but i don’t get the extremely hot, extremely cold behaviour. She did say that she has always been the cold kind, and that the way she is now is more comfortable, but the difference in intimacy is throwing me off, what do i do?
This sounds like a fair bit of drama for just three months. So much for the honeymoon phase.
But otoh, no relationships are without issue, and it also sounds a little bit like you have a tendency to overanalyze, overthink, perhaps.
Anyone who has been married has a past, and it was a serious commitment, and it had a big impact on their life and who they became. You probably wouldn't choose her to have this past, but it exists, and you both have to work with it. People who have little relationship history and experience also have their own issues. You learn a lot from either 1. Being with someone for a long time, and/or 2. Being with a variety of different people (in committed relationships, not hookups.) You have at times thought she was worth it, so I would advise you to not dig in your heels too much, on feelings of being disrespected, or played. That's likely a defensive, protective, measure/instinct, and it's fine to be cautious, but from what I can gather from what you've written, she is not playing you. Not even close.
The part "She has said she has always been the cold kind" is interesting. That must be factoring in quite significantly here. But remember, words over text can easily seem something that they are not, were not intended. It takes not only the feelings to exist, but also the person to have a very high level and awareness of communication, in order for the other person to never feel things like dismissed, deprioritized, etc. I wouldn't hyperfocus on what and how often she texts. However, how she is in person, and on the phone, is telling. Take in all of this information, consider everything. (Also, how often she gets together with you. Two people in love, especially early in a relationship, want to spend a lot of time together. It feels like a need, and that a part of you is missing when they are absent. People make due with texting in the meantime, but there's nothing like the oxytocin rush that happens in person, with touch.)
There's two things in what you said that hint at what she is going through. "i say what’s done is done etc", "We haven’t labeled what we are, but we had a big argument and she said that she felt ready for the next step but now after the argument, she feels like we need to wait a bit longer." Not only is she a woman who is coming off a long marriage that ended, but the more you push, and argue, the more she wants to retreat. We can't guess what she is thinking or feeling, and she is certainly conflicted and that must be very frustrating for you, but you could push her before she is ready, and this will push her away. You love each other. As long as you are both committed to one another, what's the rush? If your arguments are primarily about her indecision, and you feeling the feelings are not equal, I'd advise you to cool your jets, and practice patience. Enjoy each other, don't pack the relationship so much with expectations. Maybe if you say this to her, she won't get overwhelmed. Some people, you push them too much, they run. Of course you need some sense of security here as well. You can't be walking on eggshells all the time, wondering when she's going to want to break up again. But maybe if you tell her "We'll just play it by ear, there's no rush here" or something to that effect, she won't get spooked, and by giving her a bit more space, she won't feel suffocated or that there is too much pressure on her. You're not being led on. You're in a relationship with a woman who is conflicted. Neither is great, but the latter is not intentional, and intent matters.
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Regrettably I would personally give her the cold shoulder and quickly move on.
She's that indecisive, and probably always be, and is quite simply wasting your time, as well as her own.
Wishing you all good luck for the future.
Id question whether she wants to be inns relationship in the first place and whether she’s moved on from her last one. Don’t stick around if there’s no chance if getting what you want. But talk to her about your concerns.
lol, have you ever read a charlie brown comic?
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