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What does this usually mean if said by a female and do I honestly deserve what I got?

If a female I’m talking to says I heard about you usually something they think or know you have done through someone else. I have been trying to be someone I’m not back wen I was young also pissed myself on a school trip. and posted a video on instagram of me listening to a love song not really but. about a girl I liked at the time and yes she knew about it and knew the person in real life so I understand i was on another person. who didn’t want me and I look crazy ok and these are all the things that have happened that I’m ashamed of in my life never talk to no under age girl or killed anybody. but the question is do I really deserve this she would ask what is wrong and then say you never tell how you really feel. but the truth is I wanted someone else but I had no choice to stop that nonsense. & I just wanted to have decent people around me and friends for once in my life I understand her frustration with me. So I never said any bs to her but it was way deeper than she knew been a while. I met these people in 20/21 still hurts till this day even tho I wasn’t liked much by these people. I was away for trade school trying to start over but it didn’t end well it’s really something that will bother me for a while..

What does this usually mean if said by a female and do I honestly deserve what I got?
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