Female at heart and mind?

So I was born male I'm 40 but I want to be female. I've felt this way for about 10 years now. I've crossed dressed for as long as I can remember but always in private nobody has ever seen me only pictures and nobody I know. There is someone from my past that I'd love to start a relationship not sure how to locate him I've looked all over Google and nothing. So is 40 to old to start this journey? I'm completely ready to be female 24/7 for him please help?

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Sorry I'm 41 not 40 please excuse the typo
Female at heart and mind?
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