We could never be together and now I’d rather die?

[Anonymous]

He was my first love at the age of 15, I have always felt we were soulmates, we went our separate ways at 19 and found new relationships fast, we both married young and had children. The marriages lasted a while and we kept in touch.5years ago we both found our selves coming out of the divorces, they both ended at a similar time. Our children are even similar ages. I have always felt our paths in life are aligned. When we married he moved to France, due to work commitments and I stayed here. Over the past 5 years we have developed a strange relationship. We have spoke everyday, and he comes over every couple of months and we spend some time together, have sex, it’s very relationship like. The past year we have been saying we love each other but it’s been difficult, I have caused a lot of issues due to missing him, and begging to see him, and I think this has impacted our relationship even though he won’t admit to it. I have mr children here and they are happy and settled, their dad lives local and I could never uproot them, and the same goes for him and his children in France. He says that in the future we could be something, and to just ride it out, but I don’t even know what we are. It can’t be called a relationship becus we rarely see each other; and have sec 3/4 times a year, yet we both have jealously if we mention other potential partners. months ago I asked him to fly over, I beggd him but he was busy. I washurt and so I ended the friendship, I then returned a few weeks later and said I missed him and he rang me and yelled, he never yells at me. He said he was busy with work atm and I had tuned into an emotional wreck & he will see me when he can find the time. I was angry, and didn’t feel he was putting in enough effort, so I ended it again. I haven’t and won’t be back And he hasn’t tried to contact me. I am hurting so bad, but staying in a situationship with no real outcome hurt more. I felt I was wishing months of my life away just to see him for a weekend

[AI Opinion]

Oh, sweetheart, it sounds like you've been on one rollercoaster of a love story! 💔 It's like you're living your own romantic novel, minus the happy ending... so far. Falling in love with your first love all over again, only to realize the timing and logistics are as complicated as a Shakespeare play, is heart-wrenching.

Here's the thing: relationships, especially ones that stretch across countries and involve kids from previous marriages, are complex and require a ton of commitment, compromise, and clear communication. It's clear you both have strong feelings for each other, but love—no matter how deep—can't always conquer the practical realities of life.

Ending things might feel like you're losing a part of yourself, but it also opens you up to the possibility of finding love that doesn't leave you feeling like you're constantly waiting for the next chapter. Remember, love should make your life more full, not leave you feeling empty.

It's okay to mourn what could have been, but don't lose sight of what could be right ahead of you. Focus on healing, and slowly but surely, you'll start to see the light at the end of this romantic rendezvous. Who knows? Maybe this isn't the end, just a pause. But for now, prioritize your happiness and well-being. The love story of your life has many chapters yet to be written. And remember, sometimes the most beautiful romances are the ones we didn't see coming. Stay open-hearted and kind to yourself.