I am just angry and hurt all the time but I don’t know why?

[ZainabAli123]

Hey so I have been raised in a strict family where having boyfriends at the age of 15 wasn’t acceptable where my parents always had to be right. I’m 30 years old now and when I was 16 and 17 I practically helped raise my brothers and changed their diapers and stuff whilst bottle feeding them to when I tell my parents as a reminder that I helped them raise my brothers they think I made it up from my head. The reason I’m saying this is because my younger brother understands me he seems to have a bond with me ao when I explain things to him he listens.

All I wanted to do was tell my parents he listens and understands if we tell him but than praise him for doing what he’s told and yeah my parents aren’t wrong I never said they were but instead my mum gets into a fight with me when my sister tells my mum the very same thing I told her she listens to her I feel like growing up my mum and sister formed a bond and I was left out!!!

When I had a job I was touched by a male coworker when I didn’t want to be I came home wanting to tell my mum but she was soo into my sisters problems I didn’t wanna stress her out with mine the point is I feel like she’s not hearing me we had many arguments where my own mum would tell me to go die under a car or jump on the roads many times where my mum has said I been a bother to her growing up when I really have not! I just don’t get why she’s different to me and my sisters.

My mum treats my younger brother different to how she treats my older brother just like how she treated me and my sister it’s pissed me off to a point that we constantly argue my dads had enough to but it got to amount where I fought back and said she’s not worth fighting with cause she’s being pathetic she seems to forget I had to do things for myself all my mum can say is that they taken me to places but what kind of help is that really!!!

I don’t know if anyone else has experienced this growing up or if it’s just me

[Mwolf]

My mother never listened to me and treated me differently. She was also abusive (psychologically, verbally, physically, mentally, emotionally, medically, and sexually). Thankfully my sexual abuse was from my mother and not a man. But feel free to DM if you need to vent or want to talk to someone. I don't know the extent of degree or exact details of your sexual trauma but if she won't listen to to the police and report to HR and your general manager.

[ZainabAli123]

My general manager was the type of person who didn’t care they side the men in the company so I took a big deal to leave and been struggling to stay at a job

[Mwolf]

No district manager up in coperate? No HR? if nothing police. My mother was just enough to the no show abuse. No blood, no bruises, no broken bones (well she did do a Mohammed Ali and knock my front tooth.😂).

[Nikki1989]

It seems you are experiencing unresolved emotions from past events or experiences. These emotions may be resurfacing and causing you to feel angry and hurt.

[ZainabAli123]

Well I must be cause I had to handle status myself growing up

[MasterKS]

This issue raise in moe conservative family, sometimes parents act like shit but they dont know, there is no way to give them lesson, move on in your life is only way! your bad! sorry buddy!

[ZainabAli123]

I want to move out but I need a job that’s the problem

[MasterKS]

@ZainabAli123 just PM you!

[MasterKS]

@ZainabAli123 sharing some personal experience.

[noohair]

Can you make your own way? Find a place, move out and be independent? If so, why don't you start living your own life?

[ZainabAli123]

I need a job that’s the problem so since the age of 19 or 20 when I had my first job I was dealing with a male employee of mine he was constantly touching me like he would try take his hand down my back close to my bum area I hated it and told him to stop hed do that twice but my managers wouldn’t listen to me so I came home deciding to tell my
Mum but she got into a fight with my sister cause my sisters was dating someone at the time so I didn’t tell her because of that the male employee became soo constant in touching me I gave up telling him no.. point is that I struggled to stay in a job after that I become scared when it comes to working with men or telling people what I’m feeling like I couldn’t tell my managers at my next job that I can’t deal with tough customers so I ended up leaving biggest regret I been out of work since and I’m trying to find a job just not had luck

[noohair]

You are a slave trapped in your own mind. Jobs are not easy, that is why people pay employees.

[AI Opinion]

Hi there, so sorry you're feeling this way! Family dynamics can be tricky. You're not alone; many people find themselves stuck in a loop of miscommunication and unmet expectations. It's hugely important that you prioritize yourself and consider seeking a neutral, supportive space, like therapy, to unpack these feelings in a healthy way. Finding ways to communicate your feelings to your family assertively, yet gently, might be a start. Remember, your feelings matter, and you deserve to be heard and understood, sweetheart! 💖 Sending you lots of love and support! 🌟

[ZainabAli123]

I have tried that when my mum thinks I don’t understand I tell her that I do I understand I never said she’s wrong but even than all she wants to do is fight she thinks taking me to places is being there for me but it’s not and yes that guy at work became soo presistent in touching me I stopped bothering to tell him I don’t like it I jus tried to ignore it if I had my mum to talk to this wouldn’t happen

[Anonymous]

Would you want a boyfriend?

[ZainabAli123]

Erm why

[Opinion Owner]

I tought so. Buts thats not what you want