My boyfriend cheated on me and still doesn’t wanna get back together and told me some weird shit and I’m confused?

OK, so I genuinely need people’s honest opinions because I’m going insane. My boyfriend cheated on me twice with two girls that honestly are not that attractive and then after the second time, I was heartbroken, but I still wanted to be with him, but for some reason, he didn’t wanna be with me because he said he hurt me too much But when we were talking, it was weird because he was asking me if I fantasize about other men and I said no and then he told me that he fantasize about other women and I was really confused and one of the people he told me he fantasized about are related to me so it just made me feel really weird. We were together for five years. I’m 22 now he’s 24.
My boyfriend cheated on me and still doesn’t wanna get back together and told me some weird shit and I’m confused?
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