Do you think I will ever be capable of being in a relationship again?

Even though I would love to find true love with someone , It’s been actually hard for me to trust and fully give myself to someone, until I really get to know someone and to feel safe and comfortable with someone ever again. I have experienced and witnessed so much crazy shit through the years to the point it’s been hard for me to give my heart completely to someone. I been with girls’ that lied about having a boyfriend or husband plenty of times , I have been lied to and cheated on by selfish girls’ , I also was married to a girl for 20 years that decided she no longer wanted to be committed to me once our kids’ got older , So it’s been closed for me to accept being a boyfriend or husband ever again. I do meet girls’ that I am interested in that seem interested in me , but part of me is nervous to fully give myself because of my experiences. I tell every girl that I meet that I don’t want to rush into anything until her and I really
Get to know each other and see the big picture before fully giving ourselves to each other , because I have valid reasons to do so. At times I feel like at my age now , is it better for me just to stay single considering all my relationships with girls’ through the years ended in some crazy way. I been the other guy plenty of times to the point maybe being the other guy is where I should stay. Because at least I have my freedom and peace. But I want to experience true love before I die
Do you think I will ever be capable of being in a relationship again?
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