Questions: Relationships

The phrase seems to be thrown around a lot and it's fair. Some people are just Doomed Eternally. The ones who have the right people around them to build them up. They better fuckin appreciate where they're at.

Feelings are are to find. I think to fight for happiness you'd have had to have it. Because I've honestly forgotten what that is really. I can smile for thank yous and laugh on other cues. But what is it, that they have. I wish we all knew what we were looking at. Otherwise it's not as important to you as it looks to be for others. It only hurts, that's all. Any happy there hurts. It isn't a big deal to hurt. I don't know why others freak if they're wounding up single. To know you'll never see that smile because it was you. You're buried because you let yourself die a thousand times. Every moment now feels like a lie, I don't want to see me either, because it's not me, I know it's not me here. I'm with them, we're laughing and smiling the fk out of one another. Everything in my head comes out with no apologies. "But the other guy seems so good for her, I'm just stuck in my head". She's there, she's open, she knows. "But she'll regret it". The voices are much more convincing as you get older.