Okay, so I’m a Christian, and my abusive ex forced me to give him a blowjob at a church I used to go to. I’m scared, can I be forgiven by God?

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So, I used to go to a church back when I was a sophomore. I use to date this horrible person, and he was abusive and sexually active. He took me upstairs to a sofa in the church where there was no one around. He then forced me to give him a blowjob. I felt really bad because the pastor came around the corner. He didn’t see anything. He just suspected that we were making out, and that he was gonna call our parents. I’m now a Senior and I haven’t gone to church since. I’m scared and I feel guilty about what happened. I’ve repented, and asked God for forgiveness. Can I be forgives by God for this?

N192K001 · Accepted Answer

Hell, YES! Don't believe me? Let's check the contingencies.

First, let's assume you sinned. What next? Re-reading Scripture should help. Whatever the original text you consider, the meaning is generally the same:
Ⅰ John 1:9
ἐὰν ὁμολογῶμεν τὰς ἁμαρτίας ἡμῶν, πιστός ἐστιν καὶ δίκαιος, ἵνα ἀφῇ ἡμῖν τὰς ἁμαρτίας καὶ καθαρίσῃ ἡμᾶς ἀπὸ πάσης ἀδικίας.
https://biblehub.com/text/1_john/1-9.htm (original Greek, considered the original language by predominant Western Christendom, plus literal & more polished English translations)
ܐܶܢ ܕ݁ܶܝܢ ܡܰܘܕ݁ܶܝܢܰܢ ܒ݁ܰܚܛܳܗܰܝܢ ܡܗܰܝܡܰܢ ܗ݈ܽܘ ܘܙܰܕ݁ܺܝܩ ܕ݁ܢܶܫܒ݁ܽܘܩ ܠܰܢ ܚܛܳܗܰܝܢ ܘܰܢܕ݂ܰܟ݁ܶܝܢ ܡܶܢ ܟ݁ܽܠܶܗ ܥܰܘܠܰܢ ܀
http://dukhrana.com/peshitta/analyze_verse.php?lang=en&verse=1John+1:9&source=ubs&font=Estrangelo+Talada&size=125%25 (original Aramaic, considered the original language by indigenous Middle Eastern Christendom, plus literal & more polished English translations)
「If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.」

If you really have a relationship with Him, and your contriteness is real (to the point of not repeat-offending), and your relationship is based on the Messiah's sacrifice, the Most High Judge יהוה ("YHVH") Himself has already forgiven you. It is not He who convicts you. No, השטן ("HaSatan"; "hah-sah-TAN"; 「the Satan」; lit.「the Adversary/Accuser/Prosecutor」) accuses you! (And of course, he will. That's his job!) Your Defense, the Messiah, has already successfully defended you, and the High Judge has already pardoned you. End of story! It shouldn't matter that the Persecutor is a sore loser and is still trying to attack you. He lost. He should deal with it.

Hence, you should not allow the sore loser Prosecutor to to get to you. DO NOT recognize his claims. They are now illegitimate. Report him & his illegitimate harassments to the Most High and ask for His protections.

Second, let's get real. From your own testimony…
「I use to date this horrible person, and he was abusive and sexually active. He took me upstairs to a sofa in the church where there was no one around. He then forced me to give him a blowjob.」(my emphases added)
Did you will it? Hell, NO!
Did you resist it? It seems so.
Who's will prevailed? His.
Hence, who's responsibility is this? HIS!

I don't know the convictions of @Ms_Vanderquack, but she is right here: A god that condemns you for this is not worthy worship. Hence, if you truly believe that the Most High God of the Torah & Gospels is truly all-righteous, all-just, all-benevolent and worthy of all honor, worship, and praise, you should know that HE IS NOT CONDEMNING YOU.

Craftsman · Accepted Answer

Of course you can be forgiven. Repentance is good, as long as you have truly repented. That includes first acting with honor, demonstrating improved behavior. Second, asking God, or your higher power, for the forgiveness you seek. Remember Jesus said to many a sinner, "Repent, go forth, and sin no more" That tells me that you not only will be, but that you are forgiven. That is especially true if you were forced to do it.

btbc92 · Accepted Answer

Sweetheart, while you need to have common sense, you were raped. And God knows that you repent from it knowing that, forgive yourself and ask God for help. Tell your family, tell your friends, tell your pastor. Because this guy if he doesn't repent is going to face God and have to live with knowing what he did. You are too young to suffer this alone. God knows. Remember that he knows and justice will be served to anyone who doesn't repent. That kid is of the devil. Never assume everybody in the church is of God. A person of God would never do this! Ever. You are loved.

DeeDeeDeVour · Accepted Answer

First, you have to be genuinely sorry for your actions.  Second, you have to sincerely ask God for his forgiveness.  Our Almighty Father is gracious & merciful.

Dargil · Answer

*You were forced. The Creator knows that. He knows the ex wanted to defile you and the church. He only defiled himself.

*You have confessed here. Have you confessed to Him?
*Are you repentant of the act you were forced to commit?
*Have you asked The Creator to forgive you?

Yes to the three above? Your sin is forgiven.

Anonymous · Answer

Get on your knees and ask God for forgiveness but watch out for your boyfriend he might take it as an invitation to make love you your mouth your mouth. My guy is the same, anytime I bend over he thinks its an open invitation to take me from behind. But boys will be boys.

Savage_Wisdom · Answer

You're truly sorry for what you did. And you've already asked God's forgiveness. God forgave you long ago. It's time for you to forgive yourself.

Máiiréad · Answer

You were sexually assaulted, stop blaming yourself. There is nothing to forgive.

Avicenna · Answer

Yes, God will forgive you if you ask for forgiveness and don't do that again

Anonymous · Answer

Yes, but you should tell the police about that as a forced blowjob is rape.

Bratsondanielle · Answer

Yeah it's ok with god... don't worry about it.. I just asked my dad he's a priest he said that you're good with god no worries

888theGreat · Answer

If he forced you then you are innocent and he sexually abused you which is a crime, but only if you said no. However , you could have bit his dicky or screamed which makes me think you didn't mind doing it but now feel guilty.

007kingifrit · Answer

sounds like its not your fault at all. also a blowjob isn't sex so you didn't violate any rules anyway

Anonymous · Answer

Yes, of course, and it sounds like you have done nothing wrong especially since you were abused and forced

Agape93 · Answer

1. That’s sexual assault. Go to the cops.  2. Yes as he forced you to do it.

EmmaMary · Answer

Congratulations on winning a Troll of the day award.

Ms_Vanderquack · Answer

So you were raped and think that it is your fault?

Anonymous · Answer

Bring the holy water!!!

jshm2 · Answer

No. You can file abuse charges though.

Anonymous · Answer

Sounds like rape.

Okay, so I’m a Christian, and my abusive ex forced me to give him a blowjob at a church I used to go to. I’m scared, can I be forgiven by God?

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