How To Choose A Religion?

For a few months now, I've been having had a really hard internal battle about what religion I subscribe to. I've always practiced Paganism, specifically eclecticism. But recently I've felt really called to Islam and have been really inspired by Blaire Imani. I've been wearing hijab full time for almost a year now. That being said, I dont really like the idea of organized religion and know the quran was written by humans, specifically men in favor of men, not Allah. The only way to know what Allah or any God or goddess wants from us is to speak to them directly, not through man. I have a hard time accepting this while also wanting to follow Allah and be a good Muslim but holding onto my pagan beliefs. I also believe in magic and it has been very beneficial so I know my way of life simply isn't in line with what the Quran lays out, in fact its flatly stated it's haram. Some things make sense, other don't. I feel so torn between these two sides and I don't know what to believe or do. I don't want to keep wearing hijab if I'm not fully on board with Islam so people don't mistake me for being Muslim, even tho I've loved it so far. Do y'all have any advice? Do any muslims and/or pagans specifically have any advice?

How To Choose A Religion?
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