I wish to become a Christian but cannot practice in public, kindly advice?

Hello friends, I live in a country and society where being anything by the dominant religion / ideology here is treated with hostility and discrimination. For the past few years I have been reading about Jesus and have accepted him as Lord and saviour. I am ready to become a Christian. But I have a few conditions.

1. I cannot go to church as there few here but under surveillance, to attend you have to submit a written applications and register as a Catholic that will be published in a public gazette.

2. I cannot consult any clergy as the same rule of no.1 would apply. All clearly are approved by the government, thus are civil servants/ party members.

3. I cannot celebrate openly, outside my home, as neighbours might suspect.

5. I can wear a small cross on my person and claim it's fashion, but I cannot wear anything big, I can carry rosary and again say it's part of fashion.

Basically outside my head (beliefs) and home, I don't have freedom. So is that enough to become a Christian.

And what are the rules of Christianity, I already accept that there is one god, that of Abraham, and Jesus is his only begotten son and saviour and he died for my sins on the cross.

I wish to become a Christian but cannot practice in public, kindly advice?
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