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I am not seeking validation otherwise, I would have posted a selfie and asked if you thought I was attractive. The truth is that I am not butt ugly and some girls will call me "okay" while others will say they have no attraction to me whatsoever. The reason I still can get girls is because I am okay looking, and some will settle for me. The thing is I am not a 6/10 or above. I am at best, a 5/10, on my best hair day.

The truth is that I persisted anyway, and I tried dating, regardless with optimism. I was cheated on, hit physically and ended up comparing myself with guys that I was left for. Yes, the girls I dated would leave me for other guys all the time. I remember the first time it happened, I cried, and I asked her, "is it because he is more attractive than me?" The girl told me, "Oh, stop. I am not answering that question." I still managed to regain confidence every time, but the same thing always happened. One girl told me, "It is like cars. I won't wash or take care of an ugly car." Because she broke up with me and took the new handsome guy camping with her own money. I asked her why she was treating him so much better than me and she responded with that car comparison. I also do not have a boring personality. I am fun, pretty smart and have a successful path laid out.

It has just been really rough, and I am at the point of just giving up. Maybe it is the girls I am dating? I will mention that I have only ever dated above my league so maybe I should date down instead?

I am 27, almost 28, and I never had a real girlfriend. I am a frontend software engineer that makes good money. I work remote from home, so I spend a lot of my time alone.

I am seeking a woman that has the same inexperience as I am. I am wanting a woman that has never had a boyfriend or a close romantic bond with a guy before, especially from her youth. I want me and a woman to be each other's first loves.

I came very close one time to getting that. Two years ago, I met this girl online. We hit it off and talked every day. She never had a boyfriend or even a male friend before she met me. She was also a virgin, a devout Catholic, and homeschooled with 6 other younger siblings. Sadly, shortly after her 18th birthday, she rejected me upon meeting in person. She eventually met another guy who she married and got to be her first everything. I am still devistated about it till this day. I want to find another woman like her when we first met.

I am starting to think I may have to look for a wife abroad, like over in Asia like Vietnam or Thailand to find what I am looking for.

A little about me

• Turning 28 in a few months

• Never had a real girlfriend

• 5'6" tall

• Losing weight, but a little heavyset

• I am unemployed at the moment, but actively seeking a new software engineering job

• Christian
• On disability rn
• Had to move back home for the meantime
• Own a Class A RV
• On the Autistic Spectrum
• Struggle with mental health issues, especially depression and mood
• Talented software engineer
• Very kind and generous
• I admit I pick my nose and eat my boogers
• I am a shy guy
• Only had sex once in my life, 7 years ago.
• I like to eat at restaurants
• I have a criminal record for misdemeanor stalking and harassment that occurred in 2016