Search Results: finding the right person

So, maybe it’s just me being unreasonable or it’s something deeper, but I just don’t feel as into a woman romantically if she’s been with a lot of partners as opposed to a few or no partners at all. Maybe it’s just me being selfish and wanting her all to myself or maybe there’s more to it than just that. I can't really understand how some men can romantically be with a woman who has been with a bunch of other men. I mean, I would probably understand more if you wanted to use her for just the night for a one night stand or hookup, but falling in love with her? Getting into a relationship? Having children with her? I can’t really wrap my head around that. I don’t feel like I can love a woman deep if she’s had an extensive past of being with a bunch of people, nor do I feel she can love me to the fullest extent as well. I don’t think it’s insecurity, at least not fully. I think it’s something in my ape brain telling me that a woman who has been with a lot of partners is a red flag. I think it’s something biological, but my current intellect is not up to par for explaining/articulating my feeling, biologically.

I just feel like the bonding between me and woman is different if all we have to go by is one another, as opposed to having a bunch of partners before the “one.” I think something happens in our neural circuitry that might make it harder to love someone to the core, to be loyal, and to respond to sex differently. At some point, we’ll just feel as if the person we’re currently we is just another body or number. Good news is, there’s apparently a lot of women who share the same sentiments as me so there’s a good chance of finding a woman to get into a relationship with that has the same standing as I.

I should probably edit this when I have more information or my new thoughts come into my head, but right now, this is just on the top of my head. Any biology experts, chime in.

I want a woman who's attracted to me personally, and who can bring herself to love ME, in my own right, as a person and as a human being; as opposed to merely being attracted to what I have, and what I can provide her with. Is this a hopeless disneyfied dream; should I give up on ever finding a woman like this? Or are there any left out there? And if so, where; and how many of them are there who are A) over the age of 18, and B) still single? Realistically, is there any hope of finding any woman in this world who'll ever have feelings for me as a individual, instead of as an asset?