Search Results: give and take

So there's a girl at work who for one week straight until a Saturday I noticed has been staring at me even when I notice and take a quick look back to see if she's still staring. I couldn't really tell if she smiled back or what because I would look for one second and look away and saw she would keep her gaze until I was gone plus she had a mask on a few times. She wears glasses but I notice sometimes she takes her glasses off and puts them on and I tried to to notice or take a guess when and I don't want to say she is but she might be copying me. Finally a week after she was staring at me and I didn't say anything to her I finally go up to her and ask her for her name which she tells me, I introduce myself to her and tell I'm probably interested in getting to know her more she says okay and after that she kinda ignores me. She didn't tell me she had a boyfriend when I said I wanted to get to know her but deep down I have a feeling she has a boyfriend and she was playing with me the whole time. Before moving on I'm going to give a few things about her, one of them being I notice she kind of keeps to herself so that kind of gives me hints she either keeps to herself or she doesn't want to be bothered by anyone. Not sure but sometimes she goes home early which gives me hints of her having a child. She's a light skin Spanish girl which gives me hints that she is playing with me since Spanish women don't date dark skin men and I'm what you would call a black American, she's not exotic hot Spanish woman but moreso homely cute, and her work clothes isn't something that makes her stand out it's more loose fit baggy jeans. The reason I didn't go over to her and went a week later is because I wasn't and still not sure if she actually is interested in me because I'm old (41) and she looks young, she's Spanish and I'm black, and this is a first for me. Is she playing me or am I being to BP'ed.

Crossing guard is part time, barely above minimum wage, contractual obligation to work during school months, and gotta pass a background check to make sure I'm not a pedophile. Garbage man is full time, moderately above minimum wage with chance for more pay over time, essential job so can never be laid off if economy worsens, and very physically demanding. However though, crossing guard being part time and super easy to do allows me enough time and effort to further dedicate the next few months for my startup to take off, whereas garbage man I can finally achieve financial independence in a short time frame (months instead of years if I relied on startup) and I don't have to be at home with my weird family.

Of course, it's up to the employers if they wanna hire me or not based on available positions and how fucked or easy the hiring process is, and if I can be offered to work as either, I still don't know which to choose. I've checked other public sector jobs in my city, and sadly they're not eligible for me as I either lack the necessary credentials and/or the relevant work experience (so volunteering, freelancing, transferrable, etc don't count). I basically gave up on applying for private sector jobs, since I've applied to probably thousands at this point over the past decade with almost no success besides some interviews that got me nowhere. And also because the economy is so fucking terrible, along with employers not wanting to hire full time positions nor provide benefits nor pay a liveable wage.