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I’m turning 25 in few months & been having baby fever. I get jelaous seeing girls with baby happy. I can’t stop thinking of babies. I’m not ready this year have baby but maybe mid to end next year be pregnant and have baby born by age 26 . I’m 26 end next year. I’m not financially stable rn, my business has no sales at moment, I’m barley trying get savings, have $200 saved rn and want $5,000 saved by December. Then next year save even more so I can use it for my baby buy everything he or she will need. I’ve been feeling depressed empty in life I live alone, I’ve been feeling like a loser as I have no special baby of my own. I see women pregnant or with guy and baby and I wonder what makes them deserve a baby? What makes them deserve get pregnant by a guy and I don’t deserve get Pregnant by a guy? Like how is the women so special n amazing to be able get huge belly n have so much sex so many times with boyfriend to get baby. Why im not worthy have this too? Im not a party girl, I want move to a big condo apartment , and raise my baby there in our blissful home. I feel my purpose is have baby not just be stupid women living alone empty working that’s it. My life is to have my own family 😔& true happiness with my own new family.

My boyfriend and I have been together for the last 3+ years and we have had our fair shares of ups and downs. It’s still somewhat difficult to be in a relationship with him because he tends to keep the same unhealthy patterns going even though we have went to couple’s counseling about it.

Background: we met during undergraduate school when I was a junior and he was a freshman. I am currently enrolled in graduate school now, not working whereas he started his career after graduating in May.

The problem is that he lives 3 hours away from me and doesn’t like driving to a big city which is only a hour away from me to visit me. He prefers if I drove to him which I have done before but it costed me a lot anxiety driving and waking up early hours to hit the road to see him.

the last time he visited was because his friend had made a plan for a double date thing where he couldn’t really cancel. We went and he was worried about his finances the whole time. Then, we had sex in my car since he wanted it and didn’t finish me really. When I asked for him to do so, he claimed I was too “sweaty” now and didn’t want to do that. I was very upset since I felt used and he felt bad about it later as well.

recently, I was having back problems and asked him to help pay for my office visit since I was avoiding to go because didn’t have health insurance and he kept pushing me to schedule it. He said he would send money but kept asking if I could help in any way and I said “no hence why I asked you, you’re my last resource.” He didn’t send the money and I had to put it on my credit card which would be hard to pay off since my graduate program doesn’t allow me to work while in school. I’m not sure but I feel like I’m in the rude one when I just want him to do what he said he’d do and pursue me like how he’s supposed to. I tried to confront him about it but he kept apologizing and still didn’t send any sort of money to help. I just don’t know what to do.