So my ex broke up with me and basically said he doesn't know why but he just doesn't love me anymore. We were together for about 8 months and the first week was hard but I realized that I put in all the effort in the relationship (planned every trip, date, etc) and when I asked for the bare minimum he would argue with me about it (ex. Deleting ex's pictures/comments social media). He basically never supported me, and never acknowledged or met my needs so he's not worth crying over.
But of course it's still very difficult for me, he was first boyfriend and I loved him. We used to be inseparable, I'm super independent and before him I just hung out by myself all the time since I live alone and I liked going for drinks, dinner etc alone. But he was super clingy and came to see me everyday after work and slept over every weekend. Now I feel so lonely and I feel so stupid for feeling this way. I'm also very confident in my sexuality but even thinking about having sex with someone else kind of scares me which is so weird because I used to be more than okay with one night stands.
Anyways, it's been a difficult time for me and unfortunately we had a trip planned for next month. I thought I would be okay in a month but now I'm not so sure if it's a good idea to see him. I love traveling and the itinerary I came up with is great so I'll be sad if I don't get to go. But I'm not sure I'll be ready emotionally, I have a huge ego so I will definitely not beg for him back and I will try not to cut his hair in his sleep lol jkkk
Should I go on this trip? And any tips on breakups/loneliness?
