What I mean with this.. have you ever experienced it? I am a girl who know instantly when I will like someone. It is instantly. If i see you and I dont feel anything.. any type of attraction, I probably will never. The thing is.. I am really down. I got out of an affair with a guy with a long loong term-relationship.. as things like this always end the same (he left me and of course stayed with his girlfriend). But I got kind of infatuated with him although he have not talked for 3 months and probably never will. I will never contact him and neither does he. I want to meet someone. And there's a guy who I know can have a healthy relationshio with. He is single, really nice and friendly and I know he kind of finds me cute. The problem is I never liked him. I dont think there's something wrong with him.. it just isn't there. I tried going out with him as friend just once and I felt nothing. I wanted to force myself to try something with someone I know is a really good person and not a stupid fuckboy.. i could hang out and laugh and maybe even kiss. But when I think about having sex with him.. it is awfum. Because I only see him as a friend at least now and really when I start liking someone it is so quickly, at first sight and too intense. Always.. and it always ends bad. I am just really tired and bored of being alone. I never had a boyfriend or a relationship/affair apart from the one with the girlfriend and a guy who I dated for 2 months last year but we didn't even had sex or kiss. I am 25.. i want to try something. I want to forget about this guy with another guy. I realized that is how my brain works. I forget about people fast meeting new people. Do you think seeing the guy I want to try to have feelings for more often will sparkle some kind of attraction and romantic feelings? Experiences?
I have hopes because I know women tend to develop feelings for good guys since there are just a few left. It is like finding gold
