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Disclaimer- don't judge, don't tell me to choose the one i love coz i don't fall in love.

1st guy-

•loves me from past 8 years and can not move on •i am his first love and has never dated anyone else coz he is waiting for me •doesn't know how to express well or care although he loves me but isn't able to make me feel much loved (this bothers me a bit). •his love language is roasting •better looking than the second guy and has better education and career. •mostly shares memes and always in a fun mood

2nd guy-

•loves me from past 2 years. •i am his first love •he knows how to express love and makes me feel so much loved and valued •his love language is taking care •has very bad academics (this bothers me a bit) •mostly talks about my problems and gives suggestions.

I recently entered the talking phase with t 29 and he’s very much his way or the highway type of man and very rarely is open to other opinions I myself am 23 and if I had to be put into a category I would say I’m head strong and similar to the my way or the highway type of thinking so we’ve been butting heads a lot we said are hard limits and what we both want out of this relationship one of the tougher conversations was we both can hold a conversation with just about anybody which is fine just the boundaries were crossed it was stated that we do not entertain people the way we do with each other I was honest and told him I didn’t and he said the same thing yet today I heard a woman say “you were saying tell me you love me on the phone” which for a lot of reasons made me upset I’m not a very over emotional person but my feelings were hurt and he chose to ignore that and call me out about the way I talk to people instead of asking why I was having that reaction I was overthinking so I went out for fresh air and he was ignoring me and my calls I again kept overthinking and felt like how I felt in my old relationship that I was overly emotional and I couldn’t help it cause I was a woman are the type of things said to me and I feel like this situation is pulling me back into the shell I was once in I know t didn’t say those words to me but not being heard or listened to is just putting me in a dark headspace like a doll no thoughts no emotions no nothing yes sir no sir is where my mind is going and I blame myself I blame myself for being so quick to fall back and back burner my feelings like they don’t matter and questioning myself for being emotional im sorry if this sounds like a bunch of nonsense I can’t get the right words of how I’m feeling besides low and unwanted Sorry again for this long post