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Long ago my mother made a complete fiasco in my relationship. She acted like a bully towards my boyfriend and I felt powerless to stop her. She tarnished his image to my father and others; accomodating things to her own distorted version, demonizing him. She went out of her way to trash him to every single close family members.

Too much has happened and at times I have nightmares about it. Her terrible words ''I have to separate you from him any manner'' or ''I hate his guts, I'll just pretend if he ever comes to marry you, I hate him'', ''He's using you'' and other things keeps repeating in my mind over and over.

It affected part of my self-esteem. I'm kind of sensitive. I can't deal with drama nor animosity. I can't ever fall in love with anyone else as a result and I'm childless. We would've had a family by now already. I'm scared of the same thing happening if I were involved with another man. I don't even trust my own judgement. I don't even know how to handle a relationship either.

I have a mate whom I have been with for over three years now. We live in different cities. With Covid around, We are playing it safe for now so he is home taking care of his sick aunt who is on a "time table" as far as when she would pass. He has gone over all the expenses with me. They amount up to plenty! I am pretty successful and am saving for my own future and his too and know when he and his sisters and a brother would sell the house one day, he would have his own money. Problem is, he used the word "short term" as in problems in getting through. I know the aunt has enough to get them through for a little bit but it won't last and may take awhile to even rid the house and for them to make plans to leave. I feel I am around sometimes to help with this problem and to care for him also someday as he is not a hundred percent well. Do you feel I could be this crutch for his own future? Yes, he loves me but sometimes I have doubts on some things. Am I wasting my time? Help is needed.