Search Results: getting the old him back

I’m starting to realize that maybe men just don’t like me, I’m going to be 30 soon & never been in a proper relationship. I don’t want kids at least but I really don’t think I’m unattractive, I have self esteem issues so my opinion changes. But I’ve been on the dating apps for years on and off, my interest in them just became lesser over the years. Getting matches are never the issue it’s just it working out, always ghosting, fizzling out, etc. I’m told I’m cute/attractive, I never get asked out by guys in person, I can confidently say I’ve never been approached by a guy I found physically attractive. Back when I was 23 I dated someone briefly & I felt so offended by only being able to attract him it felt like settling I couldn’t be with him, I’ve been alone this whole time that shows you how men feel about me. When I was younger and around people my age more often I was told these guys found me attractive but they never did anything about it. The fact that beautiful people are always taken it makes me realize I’m maybe just not good enough. Isn’t it strange being as old as I am & still not meeting someone that I actually like? I’m not asking for a lot: good looks, taller than me (doesn’t have to be 6+ ft), educated, good sense of humor, not a cheater etc. I feel like I’ve genuinely become less interested in dating with my experience, I have a lower than average sex drive too I think

My boyfriend and have been arguing non-stop because of a problem we didn't get through the first time we started dating. The first time we started he would say rude and insensitive things to me usually after hanging out with friends or going to a party. Usually at these he would drink or smoke weed a lot and turn verbally violent. Even after addressing it with him he brushed me off, until one time he stopped for a month and then continued his problem. Over the summer we broke up and stopped talking completely, but after the summer we were forced to spend time together which rekindled old feelings even though I was kinda moving on. Long story short we ended getting back together and he is showing old patterns. Last week, we got in a argument when he made a insensitive joke to my friend when she was talking about getting a girlfriend (he didn't know he was a lesbian.) He said something on the lines of "I guess men weren't good enough for you and I should keep you away from my girlfriend then". My friend looked super uncomfortable and decided to leave, after she left he said it was a joke and that she's to sensitive. Last reason I think I should break up with him is because after the argument about my friend he started bringing up trans people and about how people being gay was okay but being transgender was inhumane. After every argument he continues to say he loves me and he is so grateful to have me in his life. So should I break up with him?