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Years ago I stopped by cash only tavern that was notable for having musicians play acoustic indie and class rock hits. I remember there was the absolutely gorgeous young blond female singer and guitarist. She was singing Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young hits and she was good at it.

I have appreciated classic rock songs since my early 20s and seeing a beautiful young woman perform them live (and do it well) sent me into a absolute trance.

I remember racking my brains for a way to approach her and not look creepy. I did get a brief conversation with her and she told me her name (which I still remember 10 years) later. I found her FB fan page. Sadly however she moved out of town a few weeks later. But that was a rare moment where I felt completely captivated.

I came so close to being a girl's first love and first everything.

Back in 2020, I was in a coding forum and met this devout Catholic girl who was homeschooled. She was 17 at the time, almost 18. I remember the very first conversation we had till this day. We really hit it off.

She later disclosed she never had a boyfriend or a first love. She had a crush on a guy but she was never close to him. In fact, she never had a male friend before she met me.

We talked every day and formed an online thing. I remember us talking about getting married at one point, where we would go on our honeymoon, and how we would name our kids. I was anticipating on marrying her.

A week after her 18th birthday, I went to go see her. She rejected me upon meeting in person. I was crushed beyond words.

Fast forwarding, she recently married this guy a few months ago who got to be her first everything. I still have nightmares about it. I had to be hospitalized because it was so traumatizing to me.

My biggest fear is not being able to find another woman like Rachel was when we first met. I fear that I will not find another girl that has never had her first love.