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I've had a crush on the same guy for almost 5 years. I had one or two minor crushes on the meantime, but nothing compared to what I feel for him. I tried to forget him but I can't. I don't even know what I like so much about him. He's not particularly handsome, or smart, our interests don't match... But still, I can't think straight when he smiles. I have this uncontrollable urge to look at him, talk to him, grab his attention. When he talks about other girls I feel terribly lost. Sometimes, I just wish to hear his voice or hold his hand, run my fingers through his hair. I tried forgetting him multiple times but I'm never interested in other guys. He's on my mind 24/7, specially ever since social isolation ended. Do I love him?

I work at a school and have feelings for a colleague. We talk and text regularly. Once, he told our mutual friend he doesn't date in the workplace. I'm leaving in a week and my crush has been helping me job search. Recently, there were days when he would text first 2-3 days in a row. We seemed to have become good friends, having heart-to-hearts. Last Saturday, there was an elementary graduation, and prior to it he had asked me if I'm going. We talked about a student whose parents aren't present much, and he suggested we take the family photo with him if his parents didn't show up. When I got to the grad, it seemed I'd missed a text from him asking where I was. He was already seated in the front row and I took an open seat in the row behind. A few mins later, I finally noticed his text. Once it was time to socialize, I decided to congratulate the students, who I think of like my own children, before going over to chat with him. He started chatting with others. But, the conversations and picture taking took longer than I thought, and when I was done he was gone. I found him at his work desk. We had a moment alone. Eventually, I wanted to get back to the party, he went home. I left with the students and noticed him still in sight, walking towards the station. I called out to him, and we took a pic together with some kids. Since then, we've had conversations and text but there's also this other girl who seems to flirt with him at work. Yesterday was my last day with the students, and I've been super emotional. After the kids left, I went straight to see him. But, the other girl was there. He was showing her videos of students, and they laughed together. My former teacher is my colleague and his co-teacher, so she's usually in the room too. I sat with her, and she whispered that she thinks they like each other. I eventually left. Since then, our text convos seem to be short. I can't tell if I've lost my chance or if I'm just emotional.