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Do I love him or is it just a crush?

I've had a crush on the same guy for almost 5 years. I had one or two minor crushes on the meantime, but nothing compared to what I feel for him. I tried to forget him but I can't. I don't even know what I like so much about him. He's not particularly handsome, or smart, our interests don't match... But still, I can't think straight when he smiles. I have this uncontrollable urge to look at him, talk to him, grab his attention. When he talks about other girls I feel terribly lost. Sometimes, I just wish to hear his voice or hold his hand, run my fingers through his hair. I tried forgetting him multiple times but I'm never interested in other guys. He's on my mind 24/7, specially ever since social isolation ended. Do I love him?
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about how much I know him, it's complicated. He doesn't tell me much about himself, but we've know eachother for almost 6 years now. I've known almost all his friends for the past years, I know his family, I know his habits, mannerisms and hobbies, taste, fears, part of his ambitions... But basically all of that I picked up over the years.
Do I love him or is it just a crush?
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