Love my boyfriend but have a big crush on someone else?

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My boyfriend and I have an average relationship. Nothing too exciting, we have a good time when we are together, but we have very little in common. He is totally into martial arts, and video games, and reading, and being home, and I like to go out, go dancing, hang out with lots of friends... We do love each other, but lately I've had this huge crush for a guy who is 7 years older than me.

With this guy we have lots of fun together, he likes to go out, and being with people, he cooks amazingly, and in general he is actually way more attentive with me than my boyfriend.

Im not even sure that this guy likes me or not. I mean he is 7 years older, but he is texting me often, he is talking to me everyday lately, he says he wants to take me to play squash, ride horses, play baseball... etc.

I think I'm getting myself in a hole with no exit. This guy doesn't really know I have a boyfriend, and I only meant to have a friendship with him at first but now its getting out of hands.

I talked to my boyfriend about it and I hurt him a lot, and he said he'd do anything to keep me, and I cried a bit becuase I do love him and the last thing I want to do is hurt him... I'm trying to be honest with everyone.. but I don't know what to do. I wish I could break into two! That's how my mind feels.

I was thinking that maybe I should take a break where I'm just by myself and just think things out better..but my boyfriend says he doesn't want to go on a break because he's afraid to lose me. I don't know what to do please help me.
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I talked to my boyfriend today. He said that he loved me more than anything, and that I was free to do what I wanted but that if I ever went with someone else I would never see or hear from him again. We were friends before and I don't want to lose him.
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I can understand he'd be mad at me for some time, even a long time, a year or anything. But I would like to keep him at least as my friend is that possible? I'm such a mess!

Love my boyfriend but have a big crush on someone else?
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